Tuesday, September 8, 2009

I rejected the job interview

as u all know, i went for a job interview yesterday @ NTUC's My First Skool @ Hougang Ave 4. However, yesterday morning, we too had our company's Vision Day whereby all the various departments of the company will come together to celebrate the successes by which the company had earned for the first quarter of the year.


We really do not know how God works until you experience it for yourself. Initially, i kind of set my mind in wanting to leave JG for another centre (As of the previous post entry), however, after listening to Julia gabriel, Fiona Walker and both the prog sales and marketing dept heads, i suddenly realised just how good God has ALWAYS been to me and all these while and i only realised it now!shame on me.. =(


However, there was one part when Julia came up to speak after our 20-min break, she got everybody to think abt what's happiness and what's pleasure. To me, the only person, ONE AND ONLY PERSON who can FILL the EMPTY SPACE in my HEART and give me TRUE HAPPINESS is NONE OTHER THAN MY HEAVELY FATHER, CHRIST JESUS. I believe that it is ONLY through the salvation of our Lord Jesus Christ that we may enter into His ETERNAL KINGDOM and have ETERNAL LIFE. For it is written (In the bible): 'Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God -- Matthew 4:1.

So, when Julia got everybody to close their eyes to meditate, i was praying VERY HARD and was literally crying out to God to get me out of the situation. The reason why Christians CANNOT and are advised strongly against Meditation is because, when a person meditates, he or she will try to block out everything from his or her mind and leave it blank. When we leave our minds blank, we are actually allowing the Satan to intrude into our spiritual realm and soul. When tt happens, we will sin. as it is, we are all sinners. we do not need satan to tempt us to sin against God. But at this point, take comfort that the Lord will not tempt us beyond what you can bear, for it is written (in the bible): "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." taken from 1 Corinthians 10:13. But! this is definitely NOT a reason for us to sin. Because, it is also written in the bible: "Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak." taken from Matthew 26:41. also, be mindful, for in Matthew 4:7, Jesus said to satan "Jesus answered him, "It is also written: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test."


ok ok.. i think i got alittle carried away.. in any case, after Julia's short sharing, i was urgent. so i had to go answer nature's call. when i was in the cubicle, i took e opportunity to msg Doreen (my mentor) to keep me in prayer with regards to tt situation and after tt, i also wanted to take the opportunity to pray. however, just as i started to pray, i heard someone from the next cubicle calling me. "Chui Ting?" said Su. r..i..ght.. cant pray now. nvm. shall pray later. Cuz Su was asking me about smth tt's work related. So since then, we started talking and talking till the end of the whole event! we stayed outside the auditorium and skipped the entire last part of the event whereby Julia invited the speaker, (apparently, she's the AWARE's president.. thou i forgot her name) to talk to us abt "Happiness". well, obviously, i'm not very interested. neither were my colleague, Jovanna and direct superior, Su. so we had a really good chat the entire time! :) and this is a huge breakthrough for me. because, right from the beginning, ever since i joined the company, Su intimidates me. dun ask me why? she just intimidates me. But! God is good! tt was the PERFECT opportunity for us to "break" the ice and we that was FIRST time ever tt i can talk and chat so happily and comfortably with Su.


after tt, we all head back to East Coast to clean up all the mess in my class's storeroom. i really appreciates ALL my colleagues. we all worked hard as a team, and could get EVERYTHING done by 5pm. thereafter, i made my way down to Hougang Ave 4, blk 667 for the interview. however, this time, i was praying very hard to ask God to give me the wisdom as i go through the interview. Also, i aldy have in mind tt i am going to stay in JGC and i will look up my HOD, Raihan and ask her if i could be under training again and eventually, lead a class of my own.


So yup! i rejected the principal and looked for Raihan this afternoon to talk about my promotion. after hearing what i had to say to her, we discussed about what type of prog is suitable for me to do. so, hopefully next yr on, i can be under training again. :)


on the side note.. i miss my darling, wenyao... :X

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Route to independence...

although i have been working and left to deal with my own stuff without having to keep asking my parents for help for a few years now? however, there were times when i'm still very dependent on my parents, sisters, darling and friends for help.

For example, how to get to a certain destination. esp if it comes to taking the bus. i am very bad with directions. really. but! this time round, as i was trying to find out the venue of the place where i'm going for my job interview, i had no one to turn to except to ask God to give me wisdom and several search engine.

Although, at the end of everything, i just realised that i went the long way in getting my way ard by looking at the maps? but it's alright. I was in fact FORCED to read the map and trying my best to visualise out and try to figure my way ard it. Lo and behold! i did it! not by my own strength, but by God's strength.

i did it! i did it! with God-given's wisdom! :) i could read and understand the map and know which route to take to the pre-sch centre. :)


anyway, for those who still do not know, throughout the week, i have been sending out my resume to several centres. yes. i'm thinking of leaving Julia Gabriel and teach in a normal pre-school setting (cuz JGC's an enrichment centre) where i can plan and execute out my own lesson plans and teach a class of my own. yes, there WILL be alot of things that i'll need to handle on my own tog with my assistant teachers such as changing of nappies (for the children who are still toilet training if i'm taking the toddlers' age grp), bathe the children, take care of their meals, nap time and so forth. also, there are much more responsibilities such as preparing their portfolios and put up class displays, deal with crying children, deal with difficult parents and so forth..

But, i do believe that this is the route that God wants me to go since He has led me to this career path. After doing tons and tons of assignments, practicums, readings and working experience, and plus the extra dosage of passion for children, i believe that through Him, i can touch the lives of the little ones and overcome all obstacles. If God's willing, i really do hope that i can get the job. it's near my place, and it's where i want to teach. For those who will read this before tmr, pls keep me in prayer. It's been a long long long time since i last went for an interview. Pray for journey mercy, wisdom and courage as i speak to the centre supervisor.


interview details:

Time: 1500
Venue: Blk 667, Hougang Ave 4
Centre: NTUC childcare -- My First Skool


thanks thanks! :)

Love,
Ting

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Thanksgivings..

1. Thank God for everyday -- that i can wake up each morning knowing that i'm alive.

2. Thank God for bringing darling and i together. :)

3. Thank God for such a wonderful darling who loves me for who i am wholeheartedly whom i love.

4. Thank God for a darling whom i can rely on and trust upon as a lifetime partner.

5. Thank God for providing a shelter over my head and a comfortable bed to rest on through the night

6. Thank God for the safe neighbourhood that i live in.

7. Thank God for my mummy. She never fails to wake up early just to wash the dirty laundry with her bare hands.

8. Thank God for the heater. So that i have warm water to bathe in.

9. Thank God for the large collections of bags, clothes, shoes etc that i may choose from whenever i go to work, school or church.

10. Thank God for a direct bus to church!

11. Thank God for the smooth traffic every sunday as i travel down to Bukit Timah.

12. Thank God for the friends that he has put into my life.

13. Thank God for Benita. She never once not turn up for breakfast with me every sunday. Thank God that i can relate well with her.

14. Thank God for Aaron and Vanessa. They took good care of me be it wenyao is in or not in Singapore.Thank God that i can relate well with them too.

15. Thank God for Wei soong. Got to know him much better today after a hearty chat we had together with Benita at breakfast table today.

16. Thank God for Evan. Who never fails to come up to me to initiate small chats and make me feel so welcomed.

17. Thank God for Michelle. Someone whom i can relate to well too. Someone whom i can talk to and play games with! :)

18. Thank God for Doreen! My newly found mentor! actually, she found me. hehe.. Thank God for a mentor whom i can relate to, and whom i can share so freely and comfortably with. Thank God for a mentor who can help keep track of me and my walk with God.

19. Thank God for the wonderful plan that darling signed up over in the states. Though ex, but Thank God for the provision. And i can talk on the phone (abt 15 mins or more at times) with dear. Thank God for good connection and reception.

20. Thank God for the wamth that the new church family has given to me.

21. Thank God for a job in which i have been happily working with for the past 3 years.

22. Thank God for wonderful parents (class's parents) whom i can make friends with and are so comfortable with me. and their children loves me! Thank God for the children!

23. Thank God for the passion for children which He has given me. Thank God for the interest and the ability to understand what the children were talking about.

24. Thank God for the family and friends here in Singapore, whom i can turn to in times of good and bad.

25. Thank God for giving darling's daddy a good 2-week break as he accompany darling to the states to help him settle down.

26. Thank God for good bargains and a comfy room and bed that darling has for his single room.

27. Thank God for his single room!

28. Thank God that darling's able to settle in and eat, drink and live well there.

29. Thank God for the scholarship that he was chosen to take on, by God's grace.

30. Thank God for the wisdom that He has given to me as i worked on my assignments and am able to remain in the top 20 positions in class for all my modules and one exam throughout the course so far.

31. Thank God for EVERYTHING! :)

Thursday, August 20, 2009

the first week so far

without my darling beside me physically.. has been quite good. and it's really by the grace of God. I am so so so thankful that i have our mighty Father in heaven to lean back on and to turn to. and also, my mum, sisters, and church friends. :)

Broke down a few times while i was in the shower during the first few nights. But after that, later that night, or the next morning, when i do my QT, i felt much much better.

These few days, after work, i'll go straight home. Couldnt concentrate on my assignment thou. but i tell myself, i have to concentrate and score well. For the sake of God, daddy, mummy, darling and myself. So, i managed to start a little bit of my assingment last night.

Today, after work, i'm gg home to pack the swimming stuff, then head down to yang's place (condo)for a swim. havent got the mood to get down to run. so a swim would be good. must swim at least 7 laps. :) swimming with yee of course. after that, we'll go up to yang's place to play with his baby niece! she's super cute! :) then, we'll probably go have dinner tog, then go watch a movie.


Gonna meet up with my classmate Caihua tmr. since e botth of us are not working. Before gg down to church by 6pm to meet Doreen to discuss about what time to meet for our 1st mentoring session. oh yes! except my sis, i havent really told anyone else tt she has accepted me as her mentee. :) Will want to work on my biblical knowledge and on darling and my relationship. it's always good to have someone to be accountable to. :)

okay.. shall stop here for now.. bye people..


to my dearest darling,i love you and miss you tremendously. but God is good! He has been sustaining me for the first week well. and i totally place my trust in Him that darling and I will work out despite the distance, and to God be the Glory! Amen? Amen. :)


Love,
Ting

Monday, August 17, 2009

The time has come...

Finally. 16th Aug 2009. my darling has departed from Singapore to the States. but! at 2358, i received a call from an unknown number.

Me: Hello?
Unknown: Hello.
Me: Hello? may i know who's this speaking?
Unknown: erm.. someone from the airplane?
Me: Darling!!! oh my goodness! what..
darling: mummy called dad saying that they got lost.

and the conversation continued for a short while. shall not reveal all.. :p

know why? cuz apparently, there were some errors. so their flight was delayed for another 1-2 hours. right. so now, i'm waiting for dear's call. he's supposed to give me a missed call. :p nvm. maybe he's busy. :)

Today, i was very strong. not by my own strength? but by God's strength. Met up with darling at 8am at KAP macs. before walking down to the market near church to meet Aaron for breakfast. It has always been a tradition for Aaron and dear to meet up on sunday mornings for breakfast before they go for the 1130 service. :) After church, dear went to meet his parents and bro at his 3e's place near Bukit Timah. while i.. make my way home.

At ard 4 plus, made my way down to dear's hse for dinner from home. packed his room,while he do some last minute packing and checking. Then, we had a wonderful home-cooked meal prepared by his mum. *slurp* the steamed fish and duck stew were superb! :)

After that, we load all the luggages into the car, and his dad drove down to the airport from their place. Shortly after we've reached there, some of his friends arrived. Before we knew it, many others arrived too. we were busy chit chatting, taking pictures and praying. It was fun actually! this was like the happiest farewell at the departure hall tt i'd ever came across! :)

although i did teared a little cuz of Aaron (but i totally understood why. He and dear are really close). anyhow, i stayed strong and with the support of his CG, mum, church friends and Peter Chew, and of cuz! God! i wasnt feeling as bad as i thought i would feel. :p

Thank you everyone for your presence! very very heartwarming to see the church leaders, church friends, dear's best buddies, and army friends to come see him off. very very nice of them. :)

Darling will be changing plane and boarding again at ard 0100 thereabout? in the meantime, i've just spoken to him over the phone. all's well. his only concern is tt his dad's feeling hungry. cuz his dad only had porridge during dinner. hopefully they board on the plane soon. :) and i shall listen to dear and go to bed soon. gotta work tmr. and after work, i will go back to my running routine and continue with my assignment. :) ciaoz people!

May the love of God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit be with you and forevermore. Amen! goodnight! :)

p.s. i love you darling. :-*

Monday, August 10, 2009

prayer...

Prayer:

Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be Thy name. Thy kingdom come.
Thy will be done on earth, as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen. Indeed Father, You are the God almighty. The God above all things on earth and in heaven. Let us live each day for You. To give You praise and honour during the good times and bad. For You are the master of all things. You paint for us a picture and plan for us a plan meant for us. Let Ypur will be done on earth as it is in heaven. We give You thanks for all that You have given and provided for us. We give You thanks for all the trials we had gone through in life. We give You thanks. Father i prayer Lord father, that as wenyao leave for the states this coming sunday, i pray Lord Father for journey mercy. I pray Lord Father for a blessed and memorable day he can spend with his CG, church friends, family and myself before he flies off to the states. I pray for journey mercies as we all travel to the airport, and as he flies off at 2330 with his dad. transtioning from London to Chicargo and eventually to Purdue University. I pray Father, that he is able to adapt to the weather, the culture, the people and the timing there. I pray that he'll be able to buy all that he needs for his hall room, and i pray for god and godly people whom he can trust and work well with. I pray for good health and good weather as he is over in the states. I thank you Father for the scholarship that You have provided for him. I pray for wisdom, strength and energy as he studies, and i pray for a good church and good mode of transport as he travel around during the weekends. I pray that both dear and i are able to keep close to You and each other despite the time difference and the distace. Father, let not these be a hindrance to the both of us. Instead, we may be able to grow even closer to each other and not distant away from each other and from You. Keep us close to You, mould us into what You want us to be, so that we may glorify Your kingdom and Your name, and help us to continue to be good living testiomonies in Your eyes. In Jesus' name i pray, Amen.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

darling wenyao's farewell party 250709 and 260709

250709:
in exactly 3 weeks from now, darling will be flying off to the states. Faith CG, myself and Joyce (Nic's gf) gathered together at Terrance's condo to throw a farewell party for dear. i thought i might be emotional and break down and cry. BUT! i DID NOT! :)

darling always tells me not to cry. he always reminds me that he's not leaving me. just leaving me to another place for a SHORT while. true true. i agree. so there's no need to cry. yes, he does leave with a heavy heart. but, it has always been his wish to go abroad to study. and the only way to do that is with a scholarship. so, God is good! He provided for darling, financially. His parents are willing to pay for his education till Uni? but that's provided he studies in a local U. so, now in his case, he scored extremely well and by the grace of God, he managed to clinge a DSTA scholarship (overseas scholarship), so why not? God has provided an opportunity for him! :)

anyway, darling and i arrived at Ter's condo near Hume Ave at abt 5 plus. Jack, Doreen, Jun wei, Stanley and Terrance were aldy there. So since all of us were free, we all decided to keep ourselves occupied with a game of "Saboteur". yeah.. it was my FIRST time playing it. So is darling. BUT! in midst of playing the game, i was stuck! i mean, not literally lah. i was blocked frm building more paths. so no choice lor. i had to play cards tt i didnt want to play. in the end, i confused everybody. sometimes making them thought tt i was the Saboteur, sometimes, they thought tt i was the gold digger (there are only 2 types of characters in this game). lol.. they couldnt guess at all!

Eventually, Benita, Adam, Sam Chen, Amanda and Nic arrived. By the time they came, Jack and Ter have aldy started preparing the BBQ pit. :) In any case, we all had fun eating, drinking (Wine) and chatting. :)

After that, we went to the Condo's Karaoke room to chill out a while and played a game of Taboo! At the end of the night, everybody added a new word to our personal English Dic: Maxi Pad. hahahaha.. shall not go into that. not healthy. lol.. no lah.. i am just too lazy to type.. lol..

After that, Adam sent darling, benita (his gf) and myself home. rather, he sent Benita and wenyao hm and sent me to the bus stop at KAP area. :)

That's so much for the 25th.

260709:

darling, myself and a group of others met at 10am to have breakfast before the 1130 service. we had a good time of fellowshipling with each other. Worship service was good. Sermon was on Living Significant Lives by Preacher Moses Lim. :) I was reminded yet again to trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding Proverbs 3:5-6 and darling's fave verse, Matthew 6:33 "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

After service, a group of us headed down to Aunty Chin Ching and Uncle Jimmy's condo at Hillview. Aunty Chin Ching had graciously opened up her place and whipped up an excellent meal to serve us as well as taking this opportunity to gather the church's band (worship team) to throw wenyao a farewell party as well. :)

We had so much fun chatting and sharing a verse each to encourage darling. and then, it led on to a long discussion about choosing of hymes and songs for worship service and sunday school children.

Thereafter, darling and i made our way down to town to buy his stuff from Sony and settled down at e starbucks beside wheellock to do some readings, which eventually, we were both viewing and deciding on what car to buy when he comes back 4 yrs later. hee.. e whole day has been a really fun day! everyone in Glory are so heartwarming and friendly! and plus i'm pretty close to his CG mates. so i have no problem moving ard in church even after he leave for the states next month. :)

ok.. gtg. there's work and night class tmr. cya ard! have a blessed week ahead!

p.s. Have you met Him today? :)