Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides
Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames
Chorus:
And I will bring praiseI will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow
Friday, August 15, 2008
open door?
just a few days ago, i was thinking about quitting Julia Gabriel (JGC) either end of next yr's term 1 (next march). however, my bond with the company is only ending next April. so it's safer for me to tender the beginning of term 1 next year and i'll leave end of the 2nd school term which is till June. then, just nice lor.. June.. i dun need to take part in JGC's holiday prog-- i can take a month's break (go on a holiday or smth) before i start work again. cuz just now, i received an e-mail sent by chuisan, asking me why didnt i reply to aunty Oi Leng's sms tt day? she was asking me if i want to join LSK as a teacher next year. when i saw the e-mail, i was like, "God! is this considered as an open door for me?"
I had remained stagnant as an assistant teacher for so long, ever since i first joined the company (JGC). despite all that they had said last sch term, about promoting me and so forth, this school term, when i was transferred to Chiltern House Playclub at Big splash!, all was quiet, and i only did playclub programmes and Bilingual playclub prog throughout the entire week. no more N1 stepping stones for me. ironically, i had like 2 sch terms of INTENSIVE training for the past 6 months.
Anyway, LSK (Living Sanctuary Kindergarten) may be a better choice. though there will DEFINITELY be a pay cut, but at least it's nearer to my home, and it's in my own church. I'm familiar with the environment and teachers there- most of them are from my own church ministry. and most importantly, i can loook forward to new challenges and this time, i can have a class of my own. i have been yearning to plan my own lesson plans, excuting it, and delivering it.
But maybe, all i can do now, is to pray about it, and ask God for a confirmation. It could be a new season in life for me. i never know. i'm going to call aunty Oi Leng later, and see what she have installed for me.
alright.. that's all for now.. :)
I had remained stagnant as an assistant teacher for so long, ever since i first joined the company (JGC). despite all that they had said last sch term, about promoting me and so forth, this school term, when i was transferred to Chiltern House Playclub at Big splash!, all was quiet, and i only did playclub programmes and Bilingual playclub prog throughout the entire week. no more N1 stepping stones for me. ironically, i had like 2 sch terms of INTENSIVE training for the past 6 months.
Anyway, LSK (Living Sanctuary Kindergarten) may be a better choice. though there will DEFINITELY be a pay cut, but at least it's nearer to my home, and it's in my own church. I'm familiar with the environment and teachers there- most of them are from my own church ministry. and most importantly, i can loook forward to new challenges and this time, i can have a class of my own. i have been yearning to plan my own lesson plans, excuting it, and delivering it.
But maybe, all i can do now, is to pray about it, and ask God for a confirmation. It could be a new season in life for me. i never know. i'm going to call aunty Oi Leng later, and see what she have installed for me.
alright.. that's all for now.. :)
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Sunday, August 3, 2008
updates...
it's been a couple of days since i last updated my blog.. been busy with night class on Monday and Wednesday nights after work.. I'm so glad that the lecturer who's teaching this module's the one who had taught me in 2 modules previously.. she's very nice and helpful.. anyway.. jie jie and Justin's back from Shanghai 3 days ago.. it was a Friday.. so i was on leave.. when both she and Justin woke up, we had lunch tog and thereafter, they went out first before my parents, sisters and i went to reunite with them at the mall.. though it was only for a few short hours, but i am SO SO SO glad that FINALLY.. after so many months, my ENTIRE family, mum, dad, sisters and Justin are able to sit down and have a meal (dinner) together.. so that night, my sisters and i gave cell group a miss. cuz dad's going back to Bintan tmr (Mon) and both Jie jie and Justin are going back to Shanghai on the 14th Aug..
That day, i was just reading an article from the notes which my lecturer gave to us.. Did you know.. that Triplets occur only 1 in 8000 births? haha.. and ya.. i'm part of a set of triplets and we're not identical. so which means my sisters and i are from 3 different eggs. rare huh? treasure us then.. haha.. anyway.. just some random thoughts which came into my mind and i decided to put it down in my blog entry..
Yesterday evening, my dad on the TV and he so happened to switch to a Taiwan channel in Mio TV and guess what? that channel actually played a couple (married couple are from Taiwan) and the third party (The lady's from M'sia and bore that guy a child). Apparently, all the 3 people asked to go onto national TV just so as to settle this r/s once and for all. initially, i thought this was just another variety show.. BUT NO!!! it's for REAL CAN?! apparently, the guy went to m'sia for a biz trip 5 yrs ago.. and there.. his extra marital affair started.. and apparently, his own wife was not able to conceive.. the 2 ladies were quarrelling when halfway through, the MC stopped them (cuz they were about to fight) and questioned the guy about what is his decision/ does he have anything else to say.. and guess what? that bastard (pardon me for my usage of words) asked the wife and mistress if he's able to maintain this r/s. HELLO?!!! who does he think he is? want the BEST of BOTH worlds?!!! HELL NO! both the wife and the mistress shouted a unanimous no. of cuz no manz.. how can anyone share their husband with someone else? and when the wife questioned him, he was still hesistating about whether should he choose the wife or mistress.. then the wife broke down and cried and said.. up till this point, he is still considering.. well.. very well.. he shall wait for he lawyer's letter and she's gonna sue him till he goes bankrupt. and she walked off the stage.. upon hearing tt, the husband went after her and the MC pulled them back on stage (very gently). then after that, the mistress also said something and left the stage, and the same senario happened. cut the long story short, in the end, the guy chose the wife, and asked if the mistress if she can give the child to them. and the mistress said she needed time to consider. then after that, they telecast a backstage conversation btw the wife and the mistress.. and the wife ask of an UNREASONABLE REQUEST from the mistress. That is -- to give the child to her and her husband, and she'll allow the mistress to see and play with the child, BUT, the child MUST NOT ACKNOWLEDGE the mistress as the mum. WHAT the... how is this possible? the wife got the husband back, and now she wants the child and not want the child to acknowledge her as the mum? RUBBISH! so in the end, the mistress said a firm no and walked off.. oh well.. who will agree to such request? right? anyway.. moral of the story.. dun ever take lonliness and boredom as an excuse for extra marital affair when u go on a biz trip..
That day, i was just reading an article from the notes which my lecturer gave to us.. Did you know.. that Triplets occur only 1 in 8000 births? haha.. and ya.. i'm part of a set of triplets and we're not identical. so which means my sisters and i are from 3 different eggs. rare huh? treasure us then.. haha.. anyway.. just some random thoughts which came into my mind and i decided to put it down in my blog entry..
Yesterday evening, my dad on the TV and he so happened to switch to a Taiwan channel in Mio TV and guess what? that channel actually played a couple (married couple are from Taiwan) and the third party (The lady's from M'sia and bore that guy a child). Apparently, all the 3 people asked to go onto national TV just so as to settle this r/s once and for all. initially, i thought this was just another variety show.. BUT NO!!! it's for REAL CAN?! apparently, the guy went to m'sia for a biz trip 5 yrs ago.. and there.. his extra marital affair started.. and apparently, his own wife was not able to conceive.. the 2 ladies were quarrelling when halfway through, the MC stopped them (cuz they were about to fight) and questioned the guy about what is his decision/ does he have anything else to say.. and guess what? that bastard (pardon me for my usage of words) asked the wife and mistress if he's able to maintain this r/s. HELLO?!!! who does he think he is? want the BEST of BOTH worlds?!!! HELL NO! both the wife and the mistress shouted a unanimous no. of cuz no manz.. how can anyone share their husband with someone else? and when the wife questioned him, he was still hesistating about whether should he choose the wife or mistress.. then the wife broke down and cried and said.. up till this point, he is still considering.. well.. very well.. he shall wait for he lawyer's letter and she's gonna sue him till he goes bankrupt. and she walked off the stage.. upon hearing tt, the husband went after her and the MC pulled them back on stage (very gently). then after that, the mistress also said something and left the stage, and the same senario happened. cut the long story short, in the end, the guy chose the wife, and asked if the mistress if she can give the child to them. and the mistress said she needed time to consider. then after that, they telecast a backstage conversation btw the wife and the mistress.. and the wife ask of an UNREASONABLE REQUEST from the mistress. That is -- to give the child to her and her husband, and she'll allow the mistress to see and play with the child, BUT, the child MUST NOT ACKNOWLEDGE the mistress as the mum. WHAT the... how is this possible? the wife got the husband back, and now she wants the child and not want the child to acknowledge her as the mum? RUBBISH! so in the end, the mistress said a firm no and walked off.. oh well.. who will agree to such request? right? anyway.. moral of the story.. dun ever take lonliness and boredom as an excuse for extra marital affair when u go on a biz trip..
Friday, July 25, 2008
Lost and Found
about a month plus ago, CK and i sat down at Carl's Junior at PS after he sold his old guitar and bought a new one. we started talking after I've got my drink.. we talked and talked and talked.. for 2 whole hours. Shortly before we left Carl's Junior @ PS, he gave me a paper flower which he made for me out of a serviette. Though it's just a normal paper rose, but to me, it's the first time a guy gave me a flower which he made himself.
Why i titled this entry lost and found's cuz when i reach home, i placed the rose at my desk.. no.. i kept it in my bag for a few days before taking it out and place it on my study desk. However, the very next day after i have placed it on my desk, i couldnt find it anymore.. so i thought my mum threw it away.. at that point of time, i was really really upset.. not cuz i'm upset with my mum throwing it away, which i dun blame her at all.. cuz it was like.. a piece of serviette? anyway, my mum never throw away our stuff before asking us.. anyway.. so ya.. i was thinking to myself.. thank god i took a picture of it that very night i placed it on my study desk. and i was upset cuz at that point of time, CK and i have aldy stopped talking for quite some time. not say completely stop talking but, exchanged very little smses and calls from him or from me to him were very little. overnight. and that paper rose and the s'pore flyer ticket and my memories of us tog were all that's left.
Then, last night, i saw the paper rose! it was there standing straight in one of my container (box) on my study desk! i was like! THE PAPER ROSE!!!!! i thought mummy threw them away!! i was so happy!!! cuz like i've mentioned earlier, i thought my mum threw it away a month ago.. but anyway, i didnt ask her abt it.. 1stly, she'll question, 2ndly, she'll then tell me abt how she never touches our stuff, lest to throw away our stuff. i really appreciate her respect towards her children and family.
However, when i looked at the paper rose, though it was still in good shape, however, it's not as good or as new as it was before.. that sets me thinking abt Ck and i. yea.. initially, we were really close and we had mutual feelings abt each other, however, when some things are lost, in this case, a r/s, even if u were to find it again, it may not be as good as how it was back then. So what even if i were to find back the paper rose he made for me? it doesnt mean tt he'll be back by my side like we used to be.. we were never really were tog. but.. the memories, places, conversations, and the time we'd shared tog, i'll never forget. though up till today, the question abt why did he suddenly turned so cold towards me still bothers me.
Although as of tt time till now, we did exchange smses/ msn msgs sometimes, but things were VERY different. maybe.. maybe.. he's just not the one for me? maybe it's not the season yet? i don't know. and nobody knows.. he's starting school soon.. which means he'll be staying in hall soon.. i'll never forget the way he told me at Carl's Junior tt time, "When sch start, i'll be staying in hall. and that means i won't have time for you" haizz.. why? god? why? when i thought i've finally found someone whom i really like and likes me too.. everything was going on smoothly.. till weeks before his first NTU orientation camp, everything changed. overnight. did i do smth wrong? was it smth tt i said? why?
Why i titled this entry lost and found's cuz when i reach home, i placed the rose at my desk.. no.. i kept it in my bag for a few days before taking it out and place it on my study desk. However, the very next day after i have placed it on my desk, i couldnt find it anymore.. so i thought my mum threw it away.. at that point of time, i was really really upset.. not cuz i'm upset with my mum throwing it away, which i dun blame her at all.. cuz it was like.. a piece of serviette? anyway, my mum never throw away our stuff before asking us.. anyway.. so ya.. i was thinking to myself.. thank god i took a picture of it that very night i placed it on my study desk. and i was upset cuz at that point of time, CK and i have aldy stopped talking for quite some time. not say completely stop talking but, exchanged very little smses and calls from him or from me to him were very little. overnight. and that paper rose and the s'pore flyer ticket and my memories of us tog were all that's left.
Then, last night, i saw the paper rose! it was there standing straight in one of my container (box) on my study desk! i was like! THE PAPER ROSE!!!!! i thought mummy threw them away!! i was so happy!!! cuz like i've mentioned earlier, i thought my mum threw it away a month ago.. but anyway, i didnt ask her abt it.. 1stly, she'll question, 2ndly, she'll then tell me abt how she never touches our stuff, lest to throw away our stuff. i really appreciate her respect towards her children and family.
However, when i looked at the paper rose, though it was still in good shape, however, it's not as good or as new as it was before.. that sets me thinking abt Ck and i. yea.. initially, we were really close and we had mutual feelings abt each other, however, when some things are lost, in this case, a r/s, even if u were to find it again, it may not be as good as how it was back then. So what even if i were to find back the paper rose he made for me? it doesnt mean tt he'll be back by my side like we used to be.. we were never really were tog. but.. the memories, places, conversations, and the time we'd shared tog, i'll never forget. though up till today, the question abt why did he suddenly turned so cold towards me still bothers me.
Although as of tt time till now, we did exchange smses/ msn msgs sometimes, but things were VERY different. maybe.. maybe.. he's just not the one for me? maybe it's not the season yet? i don't know. and nobody knows.. he's starting school soon.. which means he'll be staying in hall soon.. i'll never forget the way he told me at Carl's Junior tt time, "When sch start, i'll be staying in hall. and that means i won't have time for you" haizz.. why? god? why? when i thought i've finally found someone whom i really like and likes me too.. everything was going on smoothly.. till weeks before his first NTU orientation camp, everything changed. overnight. did i do smth wrong? was it smth tt i said? why?
Monday, July 21, 2008
music class observation
after lunch @ PP's hawker centre with Jovanna and Rino, i made my way down to Chiltern House (Halifax rd) to observe Shelia's N1 music class.. upon the children's arrival into the music and movement corner at abt 1515.. we (Zach, farhan and i) were sitting in a corner waiting for the class to start.. we were not sure are we supposed to participate in the music session or not.. but soon after, when Shelia started the class, we realised tt we just need to sit there to watch and observe how Shelia does her class.. i was like amazed! i mean.. i know tt Shelia's a superb teacher.. but i didnt know that she's REALLY THAT DAMN GOOD. The ideas.. the way she manage the children and class, the way she IMPROVISED the "Hello" song and changed it totally.. the way she engaged the children.. the way she uses the children's suggestions.. WOW.. if only i'm half as good as her.. oh well.. it comes with experience.. she've been doing this for YEARS..
Throughout the whole 1-hour (2 classes of 1/2-hour music class ech), worth of music class observation, thoughts were running through my mind.. what if, one day, i decide to leave Julia Gabriel, and you know, venture out into this area (rendering my sevices in doing music and movement lessons to other centres like PCF/ other childcare centres etc..). The first thing that came to my mind is that.. if i were to do this, i will do it on a free-lance basis. of cuz, it's not easy... unless if i'm really really good.. but.. my bottom line is that, i will want to render such services to the neighbourhood childcare centres/ PCF centres/ the ophanage. Esp the ophanage children.. many of these children are already less fortunate than alot of us.. and also.. a lot of such ophanages in s'pore are VWOs.. i think.. they will not have the money or budget to send their children for enrichment classes such as JGC.. so i thought.. if i were to render my service to them at a lower price, at least the children will get to enjoy music and movement in a different way and benefit something out of it.. i mean.. i dunnoe.. this idea just pop up in my head while watching Shelia do her class.. although i did mention smth abt wanting to go into a totally different line after i leave JGC in the future, for the sake of earning more money.. but.. i was thinking, the reason why i'm born into this world, is not just to enjoy and lead a luxurious life etc.. it's much more than that.. as a child/daughter/princess of my Heavenly Father, i will want to carry out and accomplish my mission on earth as commanded by Him before i leave this world. No one knows when the 2nd coming of our Lord Jesus Christ is coming.. but i can assure you that it is SOON.
Before i leave in regrets.. i will want to accomplish smth meaningful and purposeful and to speak of the good news to the pre-believers and witness salvation. heh.. suprising huh?! just a 1-hour music class, made me think so much and want to accomplish so much.. well.. it's just a thought.. and when opportunity strikes, i will want to go for it.. oh yes.. i forgot to mention smth.. if time permits and i have the budget, i will want to go to the less developed countries and share my experiences with the teachers there and spread the joy and love of God to them as well. And too.. render my services to them.. what do you think? is tt feasible? :)
Throughout the whole 1-hour (2 classes of 1/2-hour music class ech), worth of music class observation, thoughts were running through my mind.. what if, one day, i decide to leave Julia Gabriel, and you know, venture out into this area (rendering my sevices in doing music and movement lessons to other centres like PCF/ other childcare centres etc..). The first thing that came to my mind is that.. if i were to do this, i will do it on a free-lance basis. of cuz, it's not easy... unless if i'm really really good.. but.. my bottom line is that, i will want to render such services to the neighbourhood childcare centres/ PCF centres/ the ophanage. Esp the ophanage children.. many of these children are already less fortunate than alot of us.. and also.. a lot of such ophanages in s'pore are VWOs.. i think.. they will not have the money or budget to send their children for enrichment classes such as JGC.. so i thought.. if i were to render my service to them at a lower price, at least the children will get to enjoy music and movement in a different way and benefit something out of it.. i mean.. i dunnoe.. this idea just pop up in my head while watching Shelia do her class.. although i did mention smth abt wanting to go into a totally different line after i leave JGC in the future, for the sake of earning more money.. but.. i was thinking, the reason why i'm born into this world, is not just to enjoy and lead a luxurious life etc.. it's much more than that.. as a child/daughter/princess of my Heavenly Father, i will want to carry out and accomplish my mission on earth as commanded by Him before i leave this world. No one knows when the 2nd coming of our Lord Jesus Christ is coming.. but i can assure you that it is SOON.
Before i leave in regrets.. i will want to accomplish smth meaningful and purposeful and to speak of the good news to the pre-believers and witness salvation. heh.. suprising huh?! just a 1-hour music class, made me think so much and want to accomplish so much.. well.. it's just a thought.. and when opportunity strikes, i will want to go for it.. oh yes.. i forgot to mention smth.. if time permits and i have the budget, i will want to go to the less developed countries and share my experiences with the teachers there and spread the joy and love of God to them as well. And too.. render my services to them.. what do you think? is tt feasible? :)
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