Lucky- Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat

Do you hear me? 
Talking to you 
Across the water 
Across the deep blue ocean 
Under the open sky 
Oh my, baby I'm trying 

Boy I hear you in my dreams 
I feel your whisper across the sea 
I keep you with me in my heart 
You make it easier when life gets hard 

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend 
Lucky to have been where I have been 
Lucky to be coming home again 
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh 

They don't know how long it takes 
Waiting for a love like this 
Every time we say goodbye 
I wish we had one more kiss 
I'll wait for you, I promise you I will 

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend 
Lucky to have been where I have been 
Lucky to be coming home again 
Lucky we're in love in every way 
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed 
Lucky to be coming home someday 

And so I'm sailing through the sea 
To an island where we'll meet 
You'll hear the music fill the air 
I'll put a flower in your hair 

Though the breezes through the trees 
Move so pretty, you're all I see 
As the world keeps spinning round 
You hold me right here right now 

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend 
Lucky to have been where I have been 
Lucky to be coming home again 
Lucky we're in love in every way 
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed 
Lucky to be coming home someday 
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh 
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh 

BIG SACRIFICE.. BUT I LOVE EVERY BIT OF IT.. :)

i woke up at 5am this morning (4th April'09) to get ready for work. however, today's a little different. i woke up so early just so that i can reach TTSH earlier to spend more time with darling. All the way after i've woke up, i was feeling so excited and happy that i can go meet my darling after one day of his op. have been waiting so anxiously the day before for his bro's, wenhan's update about him. i kept praying and praying. 

anyway, i managed to get on a cab at about 5.30am. by the time i reached TTSH, it was about 5-ish gg 6am. when i reached the ward, i was like, oh..my..God! the doors were closed! what makes me think that the public can go in and out to visit patients as and when they want? so i sat down outside the ward, and prayed hard that nurses will come out of the wards. then i can get them to open the door for me. thou i've pressed the button twice to ask for assistance? but no one came to the door. But! God is good! he answered my prayer and i didnt have to wait long when 2 nurses came out to buy drinks at the vending machine from the oppposite ward and i got one of the nurse to open the door for me. Thank God i was allowed in! so i went in, but kinda got lost.. silly me.. anyway, finally, i managed to get to his ward. he was sleeping. snoring a little as well... lol.. i tried not to laugh out loud. 

anyway, as i was putting down my bag and placed the box, and hamster white board and the note i wrote for him, i froze for a min. cuz darling fidgeted! lol.. a little dunnoe how to respond if he really sees me. and ya, true enuff, he woke up.. so me being quick thinking, just immediately said "hi dear" and smiled. dunnoe why but i was afraid that he might have the impression that it might be a dream that i was there in the morning? that's why, after saying hi to darling, i touched his arm and he touched my face just so that he knows that i am really there. :P 

at that very moment, i was so so so happy and glad that i get to see my darling.. thou not a very nice place to be in, but, i love him so much that i dun mind sacrificing my sleep and wake up much earlier just to go visit him beofre heading down to work. i.. almost cried when i thought i saw his expression when he saw me? i thought i could feel that he was in SO much pain and it was almost unbearable. my heart hurts every time he tells me that he is in pain. thou pple may think that.. aiya.. this is still very new to us and we r still in the honeymoon period? but i choose to believe that all that i'd done for my darling wenyao are purely out of love, from the bottom of my heart. 

after class/work, i went down to wenyao's place. he was discharged by the time i knocked off. it took me only about at most an hour to make my way down to his place from east coast. initially, i was pretty nervous. firstly, i wast sure if i remembered how to walk to his place from the bus stop, 2ndly, i wasnt sure if i can interact and get along well with his relatives. however, when i reached kranji station, i told myself, U MUST NOT TAKE CAB. SAVE THE MONEY!!! so i didnt! haha.. and i could recognise my way ard! Thank you Jesus! :) 

Had quite a lot of fun with his nieces and nephews and chatting with darling's cousins at his place. Think they have quite good impression of me? hee.. but darling forgot to tell them my name while introducing me to the extended family. i am known as his girlfriend. lol.. but there were a couple of his aunties who came up to me and asked for my name. which is not a bad thing afterall. :) 

ok.. this is yet another long long entry. shall end here for now. bye dearie.. hope i wont bore u with this. :)


love you dear.. :)

Making of Shepherds' pie

here are some long overdue pics which i took when i went over to darling's house to make shepherds' pie on the 17th March '09 :)

Anxious moments...

These few days have been a pretty trying period for both darling and i. It happened just 3 days ago when i met up with dear on Tuesday after work, with the intention of looking for my dress for chewy's wedding next year, dear suddenly seemed pretty unwell he kept going to the toilet to try to puke. so we thought it might be the chicken rice which he had in the afternoon that's too oily. so after hanging ard in vivo and had my dinner for a while, we decided to make our way home at about 2030. I wanted to see dear to the taxi stand before making my way home via the train, but i decided not to. i was not sure about dear going home alone, so i told him that i insist that i take a cab home with him, then he suggested that from his house, i can continue to take the cab down to woodlands then take 161 home. sounds pretty good! so that was what we did. upon reaching his house in Kranji, i decided to text his bro, wenhan to see if he's at home. and Thank God! Han was at home. so i asked han to come out to receive his bro just so in case if anything happens, there's Han to help me. Though i was aldy very tired when i reached home? but i am glad that i've sent dear back home safely. This is what a girlfriend should do isn't it? :) But actually, i was more worried for his health and safety more than anything else. Though i know it'll cost a bomb? but i dun care. darling's the most important agenda than anything else. Anyway, the next day, throughout the whole day, i was smsing darling, calling him, to make sure that he's alright. Then come in the evening, i decided to go down to his place, without him knowing. Though in the morning, he kinda know that i might be going down? but all the way till evening time, and eventually after my dept mtg, i did not confirm with him. How to right? if i wanna make it a surprise visit. lol. so i called Han after my mtg, and asked to speak to dear's mummy and ask if i can go down. and told her to make sure that dear doesnt go out of the house. lol. so i made my way down from orchard to kranji by train, then cab down from kranji station. Managed to get dear's house add from han. so when i reached, i called dear. but ya, like i said, he's always so smart to be able to guess what i was going to do. and me being so silly didnt realise the fact that it's so QUIET ard his neighbourhood, he kinda guessed that i was outside his house. lol. nvm.. at least me making my way down to his house ultimately, was a surprise. haha. so i went in, put down my bag and went for a stroll with dear ard his neighbourhood. :) after that, we went back to his place to try to finish up my easter special's prog's games instructions and synopsis. Thank God for dear's help. With his help, i managed to get some done. :) so after that, dear sent me to woodlands interchange so that i can take 161 home and he will go to the doc. However, upon reaching home, he told me about the diagnosis which the doc diagnosed, he's suspected of Appendicitis. oh..my..god.. when he told me briefly about what it was over the phone and the worst case scenario, i was like.. no..no..no..no.. i didnt sleep very well that night. all the way till morning, i am so not willing to go to work. but, i had no choice, cannot take MC, neither can i apply leave. all i wanted to do was to stay by dear's side and pray for him and keep him company. anyway, after that i found out from dear that his dad took leave to take care of him, Han was on MC yesterday, and his mum was at home, she's only lecturing in the evening. so i thank God that at least darling wasnt left alone at home in times like this. Such a nice warm family he has. Just like mine. :) anyway, i told dear yesterday that while setting up class halfway, i kinda cried? cuz i was so super duper worried and scared? but eventually, when the children came into class, i had so much fun with all of them. They brighten up my day too, besides my darling. i always tell people that the CHILDREN are the ones who make me want to go to work everyday. and this week, we were learning about the letter "N". so claire suggested that we have a PJ party on day 2! lol.. so nice to see ALL the children come into class in their PJs. lol.. and yesterday was Claire's birthday! so Cheryl and i gave her a surprise when Cheryl announced to the class that it's Claire's birthday and i played the b'day song and we all sang the b'day song for Claire. :) anyway, later that day, after work, i decided to make my way down to dear's house again. just want to make sure that he's fine and feeling much better. So i bought dinner from kranji station, which turned out not very nice, nvm, and then started working on the easter thingie with dear again. but! this time, we were able to finish up everything and managed to do all that i needed to do. like e-mailing out the worship roster to Ade, and finish up the easter thingie. thank you darling for ur help. :) oh dear.. i suddenly realised that this is a super duper long entry.. lol.. think next time i shouldnt have problem writing 1000 words' essay yea? lol.. kk.. jokes aside, let's continue. so yea.. throughout these few weeks, we both saw though our actions, how much we love each other and are ever so willing to sacrifice for each other. next week might be a pretty trying week for me again. cuz next fri, dear's gonna go for his shoulder op. and soon, my night class for my bachelor course will start. Then, that will be the time when we might need to spend lesser time tog, and it will definitely put us to test, to see if we can survive the "LDR" in sg. seeing each other lesser and lesser, but still continue to love each other, and even more. i'm sure, with the grace of God, who has put us tog and in Him, all things are possible. right darling? :) anyway, yesterday, in the midst of waiting for dar's comp to load and everything, we had a pretty short sms conversation with rose. She mentioned about how sweet i was, to rally people from their cell grp to keep dar in prayer and how dar should appreciate me (that's the text she sent me and later to dear). hee.. all that i did for dar is not just a show, to show others and him what i'm capable of doing.. it's all done with love from the bottom of my heart. i didnt care much about whether will i get enuff slp or energy to do class the next day? all i have in mind was about his health and that's about it. I thank God that He is in control right from the beginning. alright. think i'm gonna stop here for now. will blog again soon. :) cant wait to see my darling again. hee.. i love you my honey oats sweetie pie! :)

a song i used to listen to everyday...

This is a song which i would like to share with everyone. i almost forgot about this song till just now, when i was in wenyao's car, he played a song on his CD for me, and it's smth similar to this song, Why. i've always loved this song. when i first listen to it, i teared. i hope you'll enjoy this song as much as i do. Maybe, some of you may have heard this song before? but it's ok, it's a nice song to share with everyone. God bless. :)


WHY- Nichole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddy
He said I`d finally reached the age
And I could ride
Next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said daddy why are they screaming
Why are the faces of some of them beaming
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe
I bet that crown hurts him more than it shows
Daddy please can't you do something
He looks as though he's gonna cry
You said he was stronger than all of those guys
Daddy please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide

So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And he said father why are they screaming
Why are the faces of some of them beaming
Why are they casting their lives for my own
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows

Father please...cant you do something
I know that you must hear my cry
I thought I could handle a cross of this size
Father remind me why
Why does everyone want me to die
When will I understand why

My precious son
I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own
Jesus this hurts me much more than you know
But this dark hour
I must do nothing
Though I`ve heard you unbearable cries

The power in your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon you`ll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below...see the child
Trembling by her fathers side
Now I can tell you why

She is why you must die

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ILKcnaoPEgg

14th and 15th March..

these 2 days had been really exciting for me!!! on the 14th March, wenyao and his cell grp invited me along to celebrate wenyao's 22nd birthday! :) though it was a belated one, but it's alright. I was pretty nervous initially. cuz i do not know most of his cell group friends? and i'm not sure how open are they to welcoming new pple. but darling (wenyao) was really nice. he kept assuring me that the cell grp themselves are even more excited to see me! lol.. anyway, darling and i were early. so we sat down in SMU's campus to wait for the rest of them to arrive. oh! oh! cuz we're mtg at the settler's cafe @ SMU that day. anyway, when they have finally arrived, darling and i decided to make our way down to go look for them. i was a little shocked to see so many of them. BUT! i really really thank God that everyone was super friendly! i could chat with them, and click with them just like that! *happy* soon after, we were having so much fun there, taking pictures, chatting, playing games. oh! and it was a last min thing! Rose, Doreen and I decided to give darling a surprise. Rose went to get dear a cake from raffles hotel? then when she came back, i went to meet up with her and got the staff to switch off the light and brought in the cake. it's not very helpful to have such an intelligent boyfriend i must say. so, as much as i would love to go with Rose to the buy the cake, i cant. cuz if not dear will definitely ask for me and soon realised what was happening. anyway.. he kinda guessed it. so in order to make us feel good that we managed to surprise him, he decided to play along.. haizz.. nvm.. at least the getting the cake part was a huge success. haha.. thank you Rose. i decided to omit out the part whereby we were pretty unhappy that our food came late and it wasnt served hot. cuz this is supposed to be a joyous occasion? so yea. i choose to remember and to jot down the happy moments. :) i gave darling 3 surprises! first, some balloons which i got one of the really cool parents i have in class who so happened to be a balloon sculptor (and brought the balloons in for the class for term end party that day) to make a heart and a goldfish for darling. though the goldfish kinda didnt work out, cuz one of the part burst? lol.. anyway, 2nd, i bought darling kinder surprise! so he ate it, and we opened up the toy portion together to see wad's in it. haha.. quite pre-school.. but i love it! :P 3rd, i got him presents. 2 t-shirts. though i think he didnt expect any presents from me? or did he? maybe he did. given his intelligence. nvm. anyway.. so tat's for the 14th March.

15th March:

after church, dear and i made our way down to Joyce's birthday party @ her house. Joyce is actually dear's cell grp friend, Nichloas's girlfriend. she's also from Glory Pres Church, but is in a diff cell grp as dear and gang. so we were like one one the first few to reach. slowly, when the pple came, we were all sitting round the tepanyaki table. ready to cook! oh my! i was hungry! so Benita and bf, Adam, Dear, Sam and I shared a table. there was a wide spread! Beef, Chicken, Fish, Salmon (Dear and my fave!!!), Cuttlefish, noodles, etc.. and yea.. my darling can cook!!!!! He cooked Hokkien Mee!!!!! my goodness! It tastes really good! *slurp!* haha.. thou i stood far far away when he was chopping up the garlic and frying them. i hate garlic! so does he actually.. hee.. anyway, we were having so much fun, chit chatting, and cooking and eating. thereafter, we went to cut the cake, took some pictures and played Taboo! (singapore version). it was a Men Vs Women thingie. lol.. anyway, in the end, the ladies won! Hurray!!! thereafter, Dear, Christina, Benita, Michelle and myself drove over to Mich's place for more games. we had so much fun and laughter! and i even broke the record for collecting the most number of cow heads.. -_-" objective is to collect as little as possible? but u noe, me being me, muddlehead and silly me, made some wrong moves and collected 201 cow heads in total! *slaps forehead!* nvm. anyway, i bought a pack of the cards from Michelle. so yup yup. shall play it with my cell grp one of these days. oh oh! and on this coming Wed, i'll be mtg up with the girls, Sing lynn, Christina, Doreen, Rose and myself. We're gonna have a sort of like girls' cell bonding kinda thing. lol. i'm not in their cell? but that's fine. they invited me anyway. hee. oh but yesterday, i do felt quite bad for having so much fun at Mich's place till i forgot the timing. cuz i have got no work? but dear has. and he still gotta drive me home. :( sorry darling. you went home so late again yesterday. i'll promise to take note of the timing next time k? :) ok! think that's all for now. gotta let yee use the comp. and i need to get ready to go out with san. take care! God bless! :)

i went to bed at 0830 hrs...

Last night, was a very different night. and it will be the same for tonight as well. ever since the day i can remember, to date, last night, on the 12th March'09, was the first time ever i went to bed at 2030 hrs tog with my mum, sisters and relatives, all in one room, my parents' bedroom, the master bedroom. apparently, according to the monk, (my family except the few of us, are not christians) my grandma's soul's coming back these 2 days? if my sense of hearing and my understanding of what was told to me served me right. so some of us slept on the bed, some slept on the mattresses on the floor, and some slept in their sleeping bag, on the floor as well. initially, i couldnt fall asleep. cuz if u can't, you're REQUIRED to "PRETEND" to be asleep. so i plugged in my earpiece with my mp3 player, and listen to the songs. i was listening to WOW worship, and the songs are nice and soothing. so not long after, i fell asleep. slept all the way till 2am, when my cousin Tricia beside me fidgeted, cuz she needed to pee, so i woke up. but actually, it wasnt just me, i soon realised that her mum, my mum, my sisters and uncles and aunties were all awake. then we were chatting for a while (according to uncle wah seng, the whole "thing" last for about 6 hrs? from 9pm till 1am)  before we went back to sleep. soon after, at ard 5am, everyone was awake. and come 8 plus in the morning when i woke up, everyone's GONE! i was ALL ALONE at home, in the my parents' room. well done. serves me right for not wanting to get up and go to school with yee at 0730. kk.. anyway, I REALLY DONT WANT TO STAY AT HOME ALONE. so, i quickly wash up, brush my teeth, change my clothes, close the windows, grab the macbook and other necessary stuff, throw it into my backpack, and left the house IMMEDIATELY, not even bothered to pack up the bedroom. but i did send an sms to both my mum and dad telling them that i really do not want to stay at home alone and went to SIM to look for yee without packing the room. i know some of u may think i'm mad. but frankly speaking, i admit, I AM SCARED. lol. anyway, i chose to go to SIM to wait for yee cuz her class ends at 1pm and there are power sockets everywhere for the students to use their laptop and i can pass of as one of the students very well. so why not? :) thou daddy's coming back in the afternoon, but do u think i'll want to stay at home ALONE for a few hrs waiting for my dad? NO WAY! LOL.. anyway.. yea.. that's so much for last night. we shall see what happens tonight. in a way, it's good. i'm forced to sleep early, and i managed to catch up on my beauty sleep which i havent been doing much recently. that's all for now! take care! :)