Lost and Found

about a month plus ago, CK and i sat down at Carl's Junior at PS after he sold his old guitar and bought a new one. we started talking after I've got my drink.. we talked and talked and talked.. for 2 whole hours. Shortly before we left Carl's Junior @ PS, he gave me a paper flower which he made for me out of a serviette. Though it's just a normal paper rose, but to me, it's the first time a guy gave me a flower which he made himself.

Why i titled this entry lost and found's cuz when i reach home, i placed the rose at my desk.. no.. i kept it in my bag for a few days before taking it out and place it on my study desk. However, the very next day after i have placed it on my desk, i couldnt find it anymore.. so i thought my mum threw it away.. at that point of time, i was really really upset.. not cuz i'm upset with my mum throwing it away, which i dun blame her at all.. cuz it was like.. a piece of serviette? anyway, my mum never throw away our stuff before asking us.. anyway.. so ya.. i was thinking to myself.. thank god i took a picture of it that very night i placed it on my study desk. and i was upset cuz at that point of time, CK and i have aldy stopped talking for quite some time. not say completely stop talking but, exchanged very little smses and calls from him or from me to him were very little. overnight. and that paper rose and the s'pore flyer ticket and my memories of us tog were all that's left.

Then, last night, i saw the paper rose! it was there standing straight in one of my container (box) on my study desk! i was like! THE PAPER ROSE!!!!! i thought mummy threw them away!! i was so happy!!! cuz like i've mentioned earlier, i thought my mum threw it away a month ago.. but anyway, i didnt ask her abt it.. 1stly, she'll question, 2ndly, she'll then tell me abt how she never touches our stuff, lest to throw away our stuff. i really appreciate her respect towards her children and family.

However, when i looked at the paper rose, though it was still in good shape, however, it's not as good or as new as it was before.. that sets me thinking abt Ck and i. yea.. initially, we were really close and we had mutual feelings abt each other, however, when some things are lost, in this case, a r/s, even if u were to find it again, it may not be as good as how it was back then. So what even if i were to find back the paper rose he made for me? it doesnt mean tt he'll be back by my side like we used to be.. we were never really were tog. but.. the memories, places, conversations, and the time we'd shared tog, i'll never forget. though up till today, the question abt why did he suddenly turned so cold towards me still bothers me.

Although as of tt time till now, we did exchange smses/ msn msgs sometimes, but things were VERY different. maybe.. maybe.. he's just not the one for me? maybe it's not the season yet? i don't know. and nobody knows.. he's starting school soon.. which means he'll be staying in hall soon.. i'll never forget the way he told me at Carl's Junior tt time, "When sch start, i'll be staying in hall. and that means i won't have time for you" haizz.. why? god? why? when i thought i've finally found someone whom i really like and likes me too.. everything was going on smoothly.. till weeks before his first NTU orientation camp, everything changed. overnight. did i do smth wrong? was it smth tt i said? why?

pictures from Elizabeth and Victoria's 21st birthday party!!!

Cell Group With the Twins

music class observation

after lunch @ PP's hawker centre with Jovanna and Rino, i made my way down to Chiltern House (Halifax rd) to observe Shelia's N1 music class.. upon the children's arrival into the music and movement corner at abt 1515.. we (Zach, farhan and i) were sitting in a corner waiting for the class to start.. we were not sure are we supposed to participate in the music session or not.. but soon after, when Shelia started the class, we realised tt we just need to sit there to watch and observe how Shelia does her class.. i was like amazed! i mean.. i know tt Shelia's a superb teacher.. but i didnt know that she's REALLY THAT DAMN GOOD. The ideas.. the way she manage the children and class, the way she IMPROVISED the "Hello" song and changed it totally.. the way she engaged the children.. the way she uses the children's suggestions.. WOW.. if only i'm half as good as her.. oh well.. it comes with experience.. she've been doing this for YEARS..

Throughout the whole 1-hour (2 classes of 1/2-hour music class ech), worth of music class observation, thoughts were running through my mind.. what if, one day, i decide to leave Julia Gabriel, and you know, venture out into this area (rendering my sevices in doing music and movement lessons to other centres like PCF/ other childcare centres etc..). The first thing that came to my mind is that.. if i were to do this, i will do it on a free-lance basis. of cuz, it's not easy... unless if i'm really really good.. but.. my bottom line is that, i will want to render such services to the neighbourhood childcare centres/ PCF centres/ the ophanage. Esp the ophanage children.. many of these children are already less fortunate than alot of us.. and also.. a lot of such ophanages in s'pore are VWOs.. i think.. they will not have the money or budget to send their children for enrichment classes such as JGC.. so i thought.. if i were to render my service to them at a lower price, at least the children will get to enjoy music and movement in a different way and benefit something out of it.. i mean.. i dunnoe.. this idea just pop up in my head while watching Shelia do her class.. although i did mention smth abt wanting to go into a totally different line after i leave JGC in the future, for the sake of earning more money.. but.. i was thinking, the reason why i'm born into this world, is not just to enjoy and lead a luxurious life etc.. it's much more than that.. as a child/daughter/princess of my Heavenly Father, i will want to carry out and accomplish my mission on earth as commanded by Him before i leave this world. No one knows when the 2nd coming of our Lord Jesus Christ is coming.. but i can assure you that it is SOON.

Before i leave in regrets.. i will want to accomplish smth meaningful and purposeful and to speak of the good news to the pre-believers and witness salvation. heh.. suprising huh?! just a 1-hour music class, made me think so much and want to accomplish so much.. well.. it's just a thought.. and when opportunity strikes, i will want to go for it.. oh yes.. i forgot to mention smth.. if time permits and i have the budget, i will want to go to the less developed countries and share my experiences with the teachers there and spread the joy and love of God to them as well. And too.. render my services to them.. what do you think? is tt feasible? :)

a sunday well spent..

today after morning service and Children's church's ministry (CC), we had the annual meet-the-parents session for our children from CC. However, this meet-the-parents' session is very different from the ones we held in schs.. cuz i'm involved in the planning of this event, i'm i/c of playing some ice-breakers with the adults and kids who came for the event.. however, my game plan backfired me when i was proposing the idea to my children's pastor, therefore, i decided to change to singing 2 praise songs (in other words, leading worship) with the people instead.. initially, i was very nervous and panicky.. cuz i do not know what songs to sing and should i sing, will i be playing the guitar for myself or get someone else to play for me.. but thank god.. in the end, i sang the songs, "He's Able" and "Yi qie ge song zan mei".. and thank god for uncle kah hwee.. he played the songs for me! without chords! *applause*applause* thanks uncle kah hwee!

I had led worship before in cell.. but, it's in a very safe environment.. as in.. cuz it's within my own cell.. the people whom i'm very comfortable with.. but today.. it's like with a whole group of strangers and CC ministry workers.. thou i was not nervous due to the big crowd, but i was nervous whether will i be able to lead well and connect the songs well.. anyway.. for my first time leading.. it's considered a very good effort.. a few of my CC fellow workers affirmed and encouraged me saying that it's was a worship well led.. thou i noe it's not tt fantastic.. but it was a good experience.. :) and i MIGHT considering telling Geraldine tt i wanna try leading worship too.. haha.. anywayz.. thereafter.. liyi, simin and i went to liyi's house to chill out for a while before heading down to Elizabeth's 21st birthday party @ Castle Green.. while we were switching channels to channels, we came across the repeated showing of this week's "Project Superband" episode.. and of cuz we HAVE to watch it.. cuz our beloved cell grp mate Sarah Lam's band is in it.. after watching her performance, we came to a unanimous agreement that Sarah Lam cant sing very well, but the band plays VERY WELL.. well done Sarah! (nonetheless).. she's the lead singer.. so we all encouraged her to train and polish up her vocal skills and jia you!!!!

Thereafter, we made our way down to Elizabeth's condo.. and e stupid security guard.. she has to take down EACH AND EVERY SINGLE's VISITORS' I/C or Driving License particulars CAN?! WASTE time only.. arghh.. cant she tell? we'r eall in a group?! haizz.. anyway.. the party was fun.. chatted with a lot of people (mostly from my own cell) and took lots of pictures.. and we made Elizabeth and her BF Joseph Lam (Sarah's Bro) down i think 5 bottles of "Liang cha".. my goodness.. that's alot can? but.. they were so sweet.. both of them helped each other to drink lor.. aww.. if only i have a bf tt's so sweet.. (of cuz cant be gf lah.. i'm a girl..) after that.. i called yee and found out tt yang's sending her home.. and since yang lived just a few metres away.. another condo near elizabeth's.. so he came over to fetch me and send both yee and i home tog.. :) ok.. i gtg watch my VCD.. take care and god bless!!!

Happy Birthday Elizabeth and Victoria! May the Lord bless and prosper you today and forevermore.. Amen! :)