final decision..

i have been thinking thru things these few days. thou it was a difficult decision to make. but i've decided. as of today onwards, i will not think abt CK. he's all but a friend. platonic kind. i have to stop decieving myself tt he will "come back" to me (so to speak) one day. thou tt period of time, i was really happy, and all that he did was really sweet, but, it's all in the past. one must look forward and move on. if u keep looking back, even if God were to send u the one whom He has sent to you, u wouldnt take notice. so yup. as much as it's difficult and painful, but i will and is willing to try. that's all. period.