Went to the chinese physician clinic with my mum. she wasnt feeling well.. quite worried for her initially.. but now, as i'm blogging this entry, looking across the hall to her room, she's back to her old self again.. packing, packing and packing.. heh.. *blushes* our clothes.. when i looked at the rack.. i was like.. WOW.. that's like a LOT of clothes can? she catogorized them into a few catogory; sleevless, round neck-colourful, round neck-black and white, collar shirt, tubes, my long pants, shorts and skirts etc.. and she said tt's not all.. we still have more clothes in the wardrobe.. heh.. anyway, back to my point.. should i or shouldnt i give up on CK? i'm really confused and indecisive.. tt time, just as when i was abt to give up waiting for him, *beep**beep* my msg tone went off.. guess who msg? yes.. CK.. how? why God? why? and then not long after, we chatted on the phone for a while, as well as exchanging a few smses, and chatted a little on msn.. thou it dun feel like how it felt a month back.. when smses/calls/msn were exchanged ALMOST EVERYDAY.. Initially, we agreed to meet up some time this week for dinner at MOF @ Bugis.. but as of today, he still have not called or anything.. i really dunnoe wad's he thinking abt.. he was the one who first told me he like me.. ask to hold my hand, and so forth.. he was also the one who said tt he wanna be friends first and take it really slow.. but he's not doing anything else to show tt he's still interested in me.. what else can i do? nothing.. all i can do is to pray lor.. i've done all i could.. i once asked him.. are we still friends? he said of cuz.. then he asked if he did offend/bully me in any way.. i said no.. then i told him all tt i wanted to say to him tt night thru msn.. the way we talk seemed like normal.. and he also mentioned things like, there's no need for friends to always contact ech other, and we just have to keep in contact.. i was like.. What?! i'm so tempted to ask him, what does he take me as? he's a super nice guy.. but.. i really dunnoe what he wants.. and have ABSOUTELY NO IDEA how to go abt asking him what he wants either.. thinking back during the times we have spent tog.. marina sq, s'pore flyer, cityhall, the cathay, PS, paradiz centre... the movies we watched, the food we had, the CONVERSATIONS we had... arghhhhhh.. feeling emo again... it's all just so memorable and sweet.. It felt as if everything's but a dream.. a dream too sweet to be true.. *sob* i cant help but to keep dwelling on it cuz.. cuz i really think it's worth it.. as in.. to keep on waiting.. but how long more will i be able to take it? i really need the grace of God to be upon me.. His wisdom to teach and guide me thru this.. God.. help me....