A sinner, saved by the Grace of God..

As christmas and the end of the year 2009 is approaching, i was reflecting back on my life for the past 1 year. Self-checking and refining my role as a child of God and remembering His goodness and grace. Everytime i listen to the song, Amazing Grace (Not the Chris Tomlin's version), i cannot help but to feel really really grateful that i, a sinner, so unworthy, yet am given the opportunity to hear the good news and be given eternal life. All because of what Christ the Lord has done for us 2000 years ago. i am indeed a sinner saved by the grace of God. Christmas has always been a very special occasion to me. not just cuz of the presents and gifts that i will receive or make for my friends? but cuz of what the Lord has done; the nail pierced hands and the blood shed for us. all said and done. The Lord my God is the one and only God i will love and follow. A Saviour, a father, a brother, a provider, a healer to me..

Amazing Grace Lyrics

John Newton (1725-1807)
Stanza 6 anon.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.
T'was Grace that taught my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.


Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis Grace that brought me safe thus far
and Grace will lead me home.


The Lord has promised good to me.
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.


Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

When we've been here ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we've first begun.


Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

Chiltern House @ East Coast Big Splash 2010

Finally! Finally! Finally! I'm going to run my own class next year!!! :) but, it will not be in Julia Gabriel. Instead, i've asked to transfer to our associate company of JGC, Chiltern House. i'll be promoted to become a teacher-in-training. :) here's a glimsp of my work schedule for next year:

4th - 8th Jan:
Morning session: N1 (2-3 yr olds) with Shahida
Afternoon session: N1 (2-3 yr olds) Chui Ting and Wang Yan (Bilingual class)

11th Jan:
Morning session: K2 (6 yr olds) assisting Ashley
Afternoon session: N1 Chui Ting and Wang yan :)

yup yup! That's so much for now? :) more updates coming up.. watch out for this space! :)

Great Eastern Run 2009

today is the day. although it's only 5Km, but i didnt really train for it. But thankfully, God sustained me, and i was able to finish the whole 5K in exactly 30 mins. not just me. San ran 5K in 35 mins and yee ran 10K in less than 1hr 10 mins. all of us challenged ourselves and managed to run faster than the previous race.

this is yee's 4th or 5th 10K run, and by far, today's her best result. she started running at 7am. and finished slighly after 8am. san and i started at 8am and i managed to finish with 30 mins. one of the reason is also cuz i want to quickly finish the race so tt i can get to church in time to have breakfast with my friends at 10am at Bukit Timah market, and then attend the 1130 service. :)

i'm glad i persevered on and still went to church. today's sermon by Rev Yap was about partnership in trembling and fearing the Lord. How appropriate. Thinking back and reflecting upon my life ever since i came to know christ, it has been a good 8 yrs. however, i came to realise (thankfully not too late) tt i havent really been treating my r/s with God very seriously. Time to do more in depth reflection tonight as i do my quiet time.

thank God for being able to discipline myself to wake up earlier, at abt 5am if not latest 5.30am to do my QT before gg to work. Doing QT in the morning's really a much better idea than to do it in the evening after a long day of work, or and night class. i'll always end up rushing thru the bible passage (currently doing the book of psalm) say a quick prayer and go to bed (fatique kicks in the moment i close my eyes :x) not good. not good.

anyway, i managed to persevere on and do it for 4 cons. days. :) will maintain it again this coming week and the rest of the weeks. :)

anyway, one thing tt impacted me from today's sermon: We are NOT GOD. Stop complaining, whining and blaming God for what we do not have. Gonna read the book of Job and Numbers to reinforce in today's sermon. :)

Ok. that's all for now. :)

PS: Darling's coming back in exactly 51 more days. :D

counting down....

darling's coming back in 52 more days!!! Today's last day of OCTOBER!!! HURRAY!!! Tomorrow's NOVEMBER!!! Darling's coming back in DEC!!! And... We're celebrating our 1st yr's anniversary in about 2 months' time in January!!!!!! yeah!!! Praise the Lord for such a wonderful darling which He'd given to me! And thank you Lord for a wonderful first yr tt He'd given to both darling and I. Praise the Lord! Amen! :)

booked.. :)

yeah!!!!!!! darling has booked his flight back home!!!!! i can't wait for him to come back home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! excited!!!!!!!!!! happy!!!!!!!!! relieved!!!!!!!!!!! :)



to date: 58 MORE DAYS to go. :D

First Choir Prac @ Glory Presbyterian Church :)

Before choir prac started, Pr. Loli tested my voice and i am in the Soprano tog with Benita, Christina, Daphne etc etc.. super exciting!

we sang 3 songs today! On Eagle's Wings, Joy and In the name of the Lord. :)


Practice was awesome! thank God i sat between Chris and Benita. Cuz they are both very good singers and i can get in tuned easily with them. :)and i could ask them where and how to read the notes. Thank God i could recap a little of what i'd learnt when i was in the school's concert band, back when i was in sec sch. nonetheless, there are SO MUCH to learn! and i'm so excited! came home, went to goole the 3 songs and sang along with it. But, i do not think i should sing so much after the prac. my voice is getting quite hoarse already. :p but! i will remember to drink lots and lots of water. :) oh ya! Ying Qi (Vivian's friend) is also joining the choir! she sat in to obsrve today, and Pr. Loli gave YQ a set of the scores to bring home. she'll be joining the choir officially from next week onwards! :) In fact, Ying Qi and i are like best buddies in church now lor! :p

this is so exciting! new ministries in church (Youth Fellowship's Logistics Team and 1130 svc Choir), new friends, new committments (church), new classes! i'll be attending BSF's intro class tmr!!!! :D i'm so excited! i'm sure i'll learn ALOT! :)

sometimes, i'm so glad tt wenyao was not with me in church and is in the states. not cuz i do not need him? but cuz, when he was with me in church e whole of the month before he flew, i was so sticky to him and was so not willing to get out of my comfort zone and mix ard with other church friends. But ever since he left, yee was not with me. But! God was with me! :D He helped me settle down so quickly and nicely in the comfort of trustworthy friends and leaders. now, i no longer need to keep asking pple to see who wld like to have breakfast with me, though by default, we know tt we're all mtg at the Bukit Timah Market beside church for breakfast at 10 before the 1130 svc. anyway just last night, and this morning, Ying Qi and Big Dom respectively texted me to ask me if i'm gg for breakfast at the market before gg for the 1130 svc. :)


so nice of them isnt it? :) God is good and faithful. isnt He? :)To be able to serve Him is a joy! I can foresee that this Christmas will definitely be very different, as compared to last yr (darling and i sort of celebrated it tog) and the years before with LSBC friends. I love last Christmas. but, this Christmas, i will be able to serve the Lord in a totally new way and new place! that is, to sing praises to Him in a new church in a Choir! :) Isnt that wonderful? :) and the best part is of cuz, my darling is back from the states after a 4-5 month wait since the day he flew :)

MJ Medley.. awesome.. :)

Dare to be like David

This morning's sermon was by Dr. Steve Griffiths. Text was taken from Daniel 1:1-21
Sermon title: God at work.

Dr Steve Griffiths spoke about how we as Christians can shine and glorify God and share the good news in our own school/workplace/family/friends. He spoke about how God was at work during Daniel's training in Babylon. Although, Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael and Azariah were chosen to serve the king, and they had to have their names changed and to learn new language and literature, however, Daniel resolved not to defile himself with the royal food and wine that were offered by the king. The reason why Daniel rejected the royal food was because he does not want to be "contaminated" because the royal food were offered to the babylonian gods before them. that is one reason why Daniel rejected the food.

Also, Daniel do not want to be bought by the king. Because he knew that if he were to accept the food and wine that the king had offered, in the future, it is very difficult to refuse the jobs given to him by the king. and should the jobs offered to Daniel were against our God, Daniel will be caught in the situation such that he cannot not defy the Lord, neither can he defy the orders of the king.

However, God was at work! God has caused the official to show favour and sympathy to Daniel when daniel refused the royal food and asked for veg and water instead. The Babylonian king was able to change Daniel's name, BUT, he cannot change Daniel's nature. Daniel was obedient and turned to God everyday. He remained faithful to God throughout the 60 years living in a highly hostile environment.

We often thought that it is impossible to glorify God or to do His works in a what seemed to be an unfavourable environment. be it in the workplace or schools, or even in our own family. However, we fail to realize that God is always with us and all we have to and need to do is to rely on Him, do what He tells us to, and He will make our paths straight. Daniel kept God at the center of his life and God sustained him. Many people, even ourselves, at times will conform to what the world think and do. That is very ungodly and we as children of God should not be doing.

Today's sermon served as a very good reminder to me especially, when so many times i felt bitter about not being able to own smth (itouch/iphone etc) that my friends and even my own sisters owned. However, today, God reminded me that earthly treasures should not be something which we should be going after. ultimately, one day, all of us will have to return home to the Lord and these earthly things which we owned, we will not be able bring them with us. Rather than spending our time slogging away to earn more money to buy the earthly treasures, why shouldnt we spend more time in sowing and harvesting for God and build heavenly treasures? In Psalm 62: 11-12 "One thing God has spoken, two things have i heard: that you, O God are strong, and that you, O Lord, are loving. Surely you will reward each person according to what he has done."

Food for thought..

heard it over the radio this afternoon:

Mother Hen adopting 2 puppies. have you heard about it?
Amazing isn't it?

There was once a dog which died after giving birth to 2 young puppies.
The dog and the chicken were the best of friends. They were always seen playing together.
After the Mother Dog had died, the owner could not find the 2 puppies.


Guess where were the dogs?
They were found under the Hen's coop.

A hen that took her initiative to "Adopt" her best friend's children. How cool is that?! :)

I rejected the job interview

as u all know, i went for a job interview yesterday @ NTUC's My First Skool @ Hougang Ave 4. However, yesterday morning, we too had our company's Vision Day whereby all the various departments of the company will come together to celebrate the successes by which the company had earned for the first quarter of the year.


We really do not know how God works until you experience it for yourself. Initially, i kind of set my mind in wanting to leave JG for another centre (As of the previous post entry), however, after listening to Julia gabriel, Fiona Walker and both the prog sales and marketing dept heads, i suddenly realised just how good God has ALWAYS been to me and all these while and i only realised it now!shame on me.. =(


However, there was one part when Julia came up to speak after our 20-min break, she got everybody to think abt what's happiness and what's pleasure. To me, the only person, ONE AND ONLY PERSON who can FILL the EMPTY SPACE in my HEART and give me TRUE HAPPINESS is NONE OTHER THAN MY HEAVELY FATHER, CHRIST JESUS. I believe that it is ONLY through the salvation of our Lord Jesus Christ that we may enter into His ETERNAL KINGDOM and have ETERNAL LIFE. For it is written (In the bible): 'Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God -- Matthew 4:1.

So, when Julia got everybody to close their eyes to meditate, i was praying VERY HARD and was literally crying out to God to get me out of the situation. The reason why Christians CANNOT and are advised strongly against Meditation is because, when a person meditates, he or she will try to block out everything from his or her mind and leave it blank. When we leave our minds blank, we are actually allowing the Satan to intrude into our spiritual realm and soul. When tt happens, we will sin. as it is, we are all sinners. we do not need satan to tempt us to sin against God. But at this point, take comfort that the Lord will not tempt us beyond what you can bear, for it is written (in the bible): "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." taken from 1 Corinthians 10:13. But! this is definitely NOT a reason for us to sin. Because, it is also written in the bible: "Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak." taken from Matthew 26:41. also, be mindful, for in Matthew 4:7, Jesus said to satan "Jesus answered him, "It is also written: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test."


ok ok.. i think i got alittle carried away.. in any case, after Julia's short sharing, i was urgent. so i had to go answer nature's call. when i was in the cubicle, i took e opportunity to msg Doreen (my mentor) to keep me in prayer with regards to tt situation and after tt, i also wanted to take the opportunity to pray. however, just as i started to pray, i heard someone from the next cubicle calling me. "Chui Ting?" said Su. r..i..ght.. cant pray now. nvm. shall pray later. Cuz Su was asking me about smth tt's work related. So since then, we started talking and talking till the end of the whole event! we stayed outside the auditorium and skipped the entire last part of the event whereby Julia invited the speaker, (apparently, she's the AWARE's president.. thou i forgot her name) to talk to us abt "Happiness". well, obviously, i'm not very interested. neither were my colleague, Jovanna and direct superior, Su. so we had a really good chat the entire time! :) and this is a huge breakthrough for me. because, right from the beginning, ever since i joined the company, Su intimidates me. dun ask me why? she just intimidates me. But! God is good! tt was the PERFECT opportunity for us to "break" the ice and we that was FIRST time ever tt i can talk and chat so happily and comfortably with Su.


after tt, we all head back to East Coast to clean up all the mess in my class's storeroom. i really appreciates ALL my colleagues. we all worked hard as a team, and could get EVERYTHING done by 5pm. thereafter, i made my way down to Hougang Ave 4, blk 667 for the interview. however, this time, i was praying very hard to ask God to give me the wisdom as i go through the interview. Also, i aldy have in mind tt i am going to stay in JGC and i will look up my HOD, Raihan and ask her if i could be under training again and eventually, lead a class of my own.


So yup! i rejected the principal and looked for Raihan this afternoon to talk about my promotion. after hearing what i had to say to her, we discussed about what type of prog is suitable for me to do. so, hopefully next yr on, i can be under training again. :)


on the side note.. i miss my darling, wenyao... :X

Route to independence...

although i have been working and left to deal with my own stuff without having to keep asking my parents for help for a few years now? however, there were times when i'm still very dependent on my parents, sisters, darling and friends for help.

For example, how to get to a certain destination. esp if it comes to taking the bus. i am very bad with directions. really. but! this time round, as i was trying to find out the venue of the place where i'm going for my job interview, i had no one to turn to except to ask God to give me wisdom and several search engine.

Although, at the end of everything, i just realised that i went the long way in getting my way ard by looking at the maps? but it's alright. I was in fact FORCED to read the map and trying my best to visualise out and try to figure my way ard it. Lo and behold! i did it! not by my own strength, but by God's strength.

i did it! i did it! with God-given's wisdom! :) i could read and understand the map and know which route to take to the pre-sch centre. :)


anyway, for those who still do not know, throughout the week, i have been sending out my resume to several centres. yes. i'm thinking of leaving Julia Gabriel and teach in a normal pre-school setting (cuz JGC's an enrichment centre) where i can plan and execute out my own lesson plans and teach a class of my own. yes, there WILL be alot of things that i'll need to handle on my own tog with my assistant teachers such as changing of nappies (for the children who are still toilet training if i'm taking the toddlers' age grp), bathe the children, take care of their meals, nap time and so forth. also, there are much more responsibilities such as preparing their portfolios and put up class displays, deal with crying children, deal with difficult parents and so forth..

But, i do believe that this is the route that God wants me to go since He has led me to this career path. After doing tons and tons of assignments, practicums, readings and working experience, and plus the extra dosage of passion for children, i believe that through Him, i can touch the lives of the little ones and overcome all obstacles. If God's willing, i really do hope that i can get the job. it's near my place, and it's where i want to teach. For those who will read this before tmr, pls keep me in prayer. It's been a long long long time since i last went for an interview. Pray for journey mercy, wisdom and courage as i speak to the centre supervisor.


interview details:

Time: 1500
Venue: Blk 667, Hougang Ave 4
Centre: NTUC childcare -- My First Skool


thanks thanks! :)

Love,
Ting

Thanksgivings..

1. Thank God for everyday -- that i can wake up each morning knowing that i'm alive.

2. Thank God for bringing darling and i together. :)

3. Thank God for such a wonderful darling who loves me for who i am wholeheartedly whom i love.

4. Thank God for a darling whom i can rely on and trust upon as a lifetime partner.

5. Thank God for providing a shelter over my head and a comfortable bed to rest on through the night

6. Thank God for the safe neighbourhood that i live in.

7. Thank God for my mummy. She never fails to wake up early just to wash the dirty laundry with her bare hands.

8. Thank God for the heater. So that i have warm water to bathe in.

9. Thank God for the large collections of bags, clothes, shoes etc that i may choose from whenever i go to work, school or church.

10. Thank God for a direct bus to church!

11. Thank God for the smooth traffic every sunday as i travel down to Bukit Timah.

12. Thank God for the friends that he has put into my life.

13. Thank God for Benita. She never once not turn up for breakfast with me every sunday. Thank God that i can relate well with her.

14. Thank God for Aaron and Vanessa. They took good care of me be it wenyao is in or not in Singapore.Thank God that i can relate well with them too.

15. Thank God for Wei soong. Got to know him much better today after a hearty chat we had together with Benita at breakfast table today.

16. Thank God for Evan. Who never fails to come up to me to initiate small chats and make me feel so welcomed.

17. Thank God for Michelle. Someone whom i can relate to well too. Someone whom i can talk to and play games with! :)

18. Thank God for Doreen! My newly found mentor! actually, she found me. hehe.. Thank God for a mentor whom i can relate to, and whom i can share so freely and comfortably with. Thank God for a mentor who can help keep track of me and my walk with God.

19. Thank God for the wonderful plan that darling signed up over in the states. Though ex, but Thank God for the provision. And i can talk on the phone (abt 15 mins or more at times) with dear. Thank God for good connection and reception.

20. Thank God for the wamth that the new church family has given to me.

21. Thank God for a job in which i have been happily working with for the past 3 years.

22. Thank God for wonderful parents (class's parents) whom i can make friends with and are so comfortable with me. and their children loves me! Thank God for the children!

23. Thank God for the passion for children which He has given me. Thank God for the interest and the ability to understand what the children were talking about.

24. Thank God for the family and friends here in Singapore, whom i can turn to in times of good and bad.

25. Thank God for giving darling's daddy a good 2-week break as he accompany darling to the states to help him settle down.

26. Thank God for good bargains and a comfy room and bed that darling has for his single room.

27. Thank God for his single room!

28. Thank God that darling's able to settle in and eat, drink and live well there.

29. Thank God for the scholarship that he was chosen to take on, by God's grace.

30. Thank God for the wisdom that He has given to me as i worked on my assignments and am able to remain in the top 20 positions in class for all my modules and one exam throughout the course so far.

31. Thank God for EVERYTHING! :)

the first week so far

without my darling beside me physically.. has been quite good. and it's really by the grace of God. I am so so so thankful that i have our mighty Father in heaven to lean back on and to turn to. and also, my mum, sisters, and church friends. :)

Broke down a few times while i was in the shower during the first few nights. But after that, later that night, or the next morning, when i do my QT, i felt much much better.

These few days, after work, i'll go straight home. Couldnt concentrate on my assignment thou. but i tell myself, i have to concentrate and score well. For the sake of God, daddy, mummy, darling and myself. So, i managed to start a little bit of my assingment last night.

Today, after work, i'm gg home to pack the swimming stuff, then head down to yang's place (condo)for a swim. havent got the mood to get down to run. so a swim would be good. must swim at least 7 laps. :) swimming with yee of course. after that, we'll go up to yang's place to play with his baby niece! she's super cute! :) then, we'll probably go have dinner tog, then go watch a movie.


Gonna meet up with my classmate Caihua tmr. since e botth of us are not working. Before gg down to church by 6pm to meet Doreen to discuss about what time to meet for our 1st mentoring session. oh yes! except my sis, i havent really told anyone else tt she has accepted me as her mentee. :) Will want to work on my biblical knowledge and on darling and my relationship. it's always good to have someone to be accountable to. :)

okay.. shall stop here for now.. bye people..


to my dearest darling,i love you and miss you tremendously. but God is good! He has been sustaining me for the first week well. and i totally place my trust in Him that darling and I will work out despite the distance, and to God be the Glory! Amen? Amen. :)


Love,
Ting

The time has come...

Finally. 16th Aug 2009. my darling has departed from Singapore to the States. but! at 2358, i received a call from an unknown number.

Me: Hello?
Unknown: Hello.
Me: Hello? may i know who's this speaking?
Unknown: erm.. someone from the airplane?
Me: Darling!!! oh my goodness! what..
darling: mummy called dad saying that they got lost.

and the conversation continued for a short while. shall not reveal all.. :p

know why? cuz apparently, there were some errors. so their flight was delayed for another 1-2 hours. right. so now, i'm waiting for dear's call. he's supposed to give me a missed call. :p nvm. maybe he's busy. :)

Today, i was very strong. not by my own strength? but by God's strength. Met up with darling at 8am at KAP macs. before walking down to the market near church to meet Aaron for breakfast. It has always been a tradition for Aaron and dear to meet up on sunday mornings for breakfast before they go for the 1130 service. :) After church, dear went to meet his parents and bro at his 3e's place near Bukit Timah. while i.. make my way home.

At ard 4 plus, made my way down to dear's hse for dinner from home. packed his room,while he do some last minute packing and checking. Then, we had a wonderful home-cooked meal prepared by his mum. *slurp* the steamed fish and duck stew were superb! :)

After that, we load all the luggages into the car, and his dad drove down to the airport from their place. Shortly after we've reached there, some of his friends arrived. Before we knew it, many others arrived too. we were busy chit chatting, taking pictures and praying. It was fun actually! this was like the happiest farewell at the departure hall tt i'd ever came across! :)

although i did teared a little cuz of Aaron (but i totally understood why. He and dear are really close). anyhow, i stayed strong and with the support of his CG, mum, church friends and Peter Chew, and of cuz! God! i wasnt feeling as bad as i thought i would feel. :p

Thank you everyone for your presence! very very heartwarming to see the church leaders, church friends, dear's best buddies, and army friends to come see him off. very very nice of them. :)

Darling will be changing plane and boarding again at ard 0100 thereabout? in the meantime, i've just spoken to him over the phone. all's well. his only concern is tt his dad's feeling hungry. cuz his dad only had porridge during dinner. hopefully they board on the plane soon. :) and i shall listen to dear and go to bed soon. gotta work tmr. and after work, i will go back to my running routine and continue with my assignment. :) ciaoz people!

May the love of God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit be with you and forevermore. Amen! goodnight! :)

p.s. i love you darling. :-*

prayer...

Prayer:

Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be Thy name. Thy kingdom come.
Thy will be done on earth, as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen. Indeed Father, You are the God almighty. The God above all things on earth and in heaven. Let us live each day for You. To give You praise and honour during the good times and bad. For You are the master of all things. You paint for us a picture and plan for us a plan meant for us. Let Ypur will be done on earth as it is in heaven. We give You thanks for all that You have given and provided for us. We give You thanks for all the trials we had gone through in life. We give You thanks. Father i prayer Lord father, that as wenyao leave for the states this coming sunday, i pray Lord Father for journey mercy. I pray Lord Father for a blessed and memorable day he can spend with his CG, church friends, family and myself before he flies off to the states. I pray for journey mercies as we all travel to the airport, and as he flies off at 2330 with his dad. transtioning from London to Chicargo and eventually to Purdue University. I pray Father, that he is able to adapt to the weather, the culture, the people and the timing there. I pray that he'll be able to buy all that he needs for his hall room, and i pray for god and godly people whom he can trust and work well with. I pray for good health and good weather as he is over in the states. I thank you Father for the scholarship that You have provided for him. I pray for wisdom, strength and energy as he studies, and i pray for a good church and good mode of transport as he travel around during the weekends. I pray that both dear and i are able to keep close to You and each other despite the time difference and the distace. Father, let not these be a hindrance to the both of us. Instead, we may be able to grow even closer to each other and not distant away from each other and from You. Keep us close to You, mould us into what You want us to be, so that we may glorify Your kingdom and Your name, and help us to continue to be good living testiomonies in Your eyes. In Jesus' name i pray, Amen.

darling wenyao's farewell party 250709 and 260709

250709:
in exactly 3 weeks from now, darling will be flying off to the states. Faith CG, myself and Joyce (Nic's gf) gathered together at Terrance's condo to throw a farewell party for dear. i thought i might be emotional and break down and cry. BUT! i DID NOT! :)

darling always tells me not to cry. he always reminds me that he's not leaving me. just leaving me to another place for a SHORT while. true true. i agree. so there's no need to cry. yes, he does leave with a heavy heart. but, it has always been his wish to go abroad to study. and the only way to do that is with a scholarship. so, God is good! He provided for darling, financially. His parents are willing to pay for his education till Uni? but that's provided he studies in a local U. so, now in his case, he scored extremely well and by the grace of God, he managed to clinge a DSTA scholarship (overseas scholarship), so why not? God has provided an opportunity for him! :)

anyway, darling and i arrived at Ter's condo near Hume Ave at abt 5 plus. Jack, Doreen, Jun wei, Stanley and Terrance were aldy there. So since all of us were free, we all decided to keep ourselves occupied with a game of "Saboteur". yeah.. it was my FIRST time playing it. So is darling. BUT! in midst of playing the game, i was stuck! i mean, not literally lah. i was blocked frm building more paths. so no choice lor. i had to play cards tt i didnt want to play. in the end, i confused everybody. sometimes making them thought tt i was the Saboteur, sometimes, they thought tt i was the gold digger (there are only 2 types of characters in this game). lol.. they couldnt guess at all!

Eventually, Benita, Adam, Sam Chen, Amanda and Nic arrived. By the time they came, Jack and Ter have aldy started preparing the BBQ pit. :) In any case, we all had fun eating, drinking (Wine) and chatting. :)

After that, we went to the Condo's Karaoke room to chill out a while and played a game of Taboo! At the end of the night, everybody added a new word to our personal English Dic: Maxi Pad. hahahaha.. shall not go into that. not healthy. lol.. no lah.. i am just too lazy to type.. lol..

After that, Adam sent darling, benita (his gf) and myself home. rather, he sent Benita and wenyao hm and sent me to the bus stop at KAP area. :)

That's so much for the 25th.

260709:

darling, myself and a group of others met at 10am to have breakfast before the 1130 service. we had a good time of fellowshipling with each other. Worship service was good. Sermon was on Living Significant Lives by Preacher Moses Lim. :) I was reminded yet again to trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding Proverbs 3:5-6 and darling's fave verse, Matthew 6:33 "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

After service, a group of us headed down to Aunty Chin Ching and Uncle Jimmy's condo at Hillview. Aunty Chin Ching had graciously opened up her place and whipped up an excellent meal to serve us as well as taking this opportunity to gather the church's band (worship team) to throw wenyao a farewell party as well. :)

We had so much fun chatting and sharing a verse each to encourage darling. and then, it led on to a long discussion about choosing of hymes and songs for worship service and sunday school children.

Thereafter, darling and i made our way down to town to buy his stuff from Sony and settled down at e starbucks beside wheellock to do some readings, which eventually, we were both viewing and deciding on what car to buy when he comes back 4 yrs later. hee.. e whole day has been a really fun day! everyone in Glory are so heartwarming and friendly! and plus i'm pretty close to his CG mates. so i have no problem moving ard in church even after he leave for the states next month. :)

ok.. gtg. there's work and night class tmr. cya ard! have a blessed week ahead!

p.s. Have you met Him today? :)

Beautiful Saviour

Jesus, Beautiful Saviour,

God of all Majesty, Risen king,

Lamb of God, Holy and righteous,

Blessed redeemer, Bright morning star

All the heavens shout your praise,

All creation bow to worship You

How wonderful,

how beautiful,

Name above every name, exalted high

How wonderful,

how beautiful,

Jesus your name,

name above every name,

Jesus

I will sing forever,

Jesus I love you,

Jesus I love you

First day at Glory Presbyterian Church -- 19th July 2009

was excellent! met up with dear and friends which includes Benita, Big Dom, Michelle, Aaron, Vanessa, Nicholas and two other whom erm.. i do not know their names. cuz it was my first time mtg the 2 others.. heh.. anyway, breakfast was HILARIOUS!!!

Big Dom and i were eating our breakfast (we were sitting opposite each other) while chatting when all of a sudden, "plop!" a drop of bird shit dropped in between Dom's and my plate! Oh My Goodness! we were shocked! we looked at each other, then looked up! NOTHING! must be a passing-by birdie.. LOL.. Benita said "No la.. wun have another time one.. LIGHTENING WON'T STRIKE TWICE" (take note of the bold letters) upon seeing Dom holding on to his plate and eating.

So after that, we were all chatting away happily when all of a sudden! Dom looked into his empty plate and saw another drop of bird shit! OH MY GOODNESS! cuz his chopsticks were placed across the plate, Darling (who was sitting beside Dom's right hand side) and Nicholas (i think) immediately placed the pair of chopsticks across each other to form a cross. So they made it looked as thou the bird hit the target! *slaps forehead* LOL.... we were all laughing away so hard tt we couldnt even control our laughter!!! LOL...

Yea.. Benita still say Lightening won't strike twice! LOL..

Anyway, most of the people in the group had to play in the worship team. So we had to be in church by 11am to prepare. cuz we were eating at the market beside church. :) so i just stood ard and chatting with some of dear's CG mates.

Yesterday was Music sunday. So they invited Pastor Robert Solomon, a pastor from a Medodist Church in Singapore to come preach in Glory. And he preached about making music to the Lord. Indeed. Worship to our God is not just during singspiration session (or what many know it as praise and worship session). he reminded us that worship happens throughout the whole service. Right from the beggining till the end of service. He preached about choosing the right songs, with correct dotrinal meaning and theological facts.

Many times, back in my previous church, we used to clap our hands during praise and worship session. Pastor Robert Solomon however reminded us that the only person who is allowed and is able to clap is none other than God. When we sing praises unto Him, He will clap if he find our worship's pleasing to Him. If WE clap, it just goes to show that WE'RE the ones who're enjoying the music. So now, the question is, Who's supposed to enjoy the worship? ourselves? or God. Are we praising Him, or are we enjoying the music?

Pastor Robert also shared that many Christian song writers are probably not well trained or very well versed in the word of God. That is why, although, many christian song writers meant well and do not have ill intentions when writing christian songs, however, sometimes, the words or the way they phrase their sentences, if being read carefully, u realised that there is something VERY wrong with it.

During conclusion, he shared with us about an Odthodox's story:

Once, there was a pastor who was preaching in a church. However, as time goes by, lesser and lesser people turned up for service. So one day, the worship leader told the Pastor, "Since there's no one here today, let's call off worship altogether" and left. When the Pastor was standing at the pulpit, he told himself, "hey! although there was no one here for worship? But! the One whom they are worshipping IS HERE! SO.. THERE IS NO REASON TO CALL OFF WORSHIP! :) so week after week, months after month, without fail, the Pastor will sing songs and praise the Lord himself, and preach to himself. People in the town calls him crazy, or insane. But! i think he's probably one of the SANEST person in the whole town! He understood the meaning of TRUE WORSHIP! Isnt's that so true? In fact, God was so PLEASED with him that he blessed the Pastor abandantly. Till today, the number of believers in the church is massive. Just because of one man's faith and honour to the king of kings and the Lord of Lords, Our God blessed him and the church till today. Amen? :)

In fact, after so many years.. my perspective of attending church and expectations towards praise and worship had changed alot. Till yesterday, i was convinced that the Lord has His own reasons for bringing me to Glory and i will live for Him and Honour Him for the rest of my life. In Him, all things are possible.

In approximately 3 weeks time, Wenyao will be leaving for the states to further his studies. It's the beginning of a new and exciting journey for the both of us, and of course, a very challenging one as well. But! like i said, with God, everything is possible. I am sure that if God brings us to it, He will bring us through it. 4 years may seemed long to everybody. everyone had the SAME kind of reaction when i told them wenyao's leaving for the states for 4 yrs. it's ok! God has provided everything that we needed and help prepare us for this long-distance r/s. He provided good and trusted friends, family, a netbook and Himself. isn't tt good enuff? :) thou at times i'd feel pretty emotional about things.. esp when i'm alone.. but.. i still choose to trust in My God at all times. Amen? :)

Alright. That's all for now. it's a super long entry today. gotta go take a short nap first. eyes are coming near to a close. and mind's not functioning properly. bye people. to the one i love, wenyao, i love u. :-*

Exam Results!!!!

Wohoo! i just got back my exam results yesterday! and i've got a Credit! (score's btw 64-74) This was the exam i sat for 2 weeks ago! :) It's on the module -- Developing a Play Curriculum. By the grace of God, i came in the top 20 in a class of 50 students! :) Praise the Lord! It has been a good 5 yrs since i last sat for an important exam. So, tog with the Assignment which i did for this module, i too got a Credit. So overall, my first Module fully completed -- Credit. Praise the Lord! Thank You Jesus!!!! :) hahahahaha.. But! i did slightly not well for the other module which is my Science and Tech in Young children's module. Just got back my assignment 1's result. i only managed to get a P1 (Pass 1) cant really recall the score thou.. but nonetheless, i still passed the assg. now waiting for Assg 2 to be returned to us. by then, i hope the 2nd assg can help pull up my overall grade to a Credit. :)


By the way, on the 15th of this month, which was the Wed that just passed, It was Wenyao and my 6th Month anniversary! how time flies ya? by the time it's our 7th month, the very next day, he'll be flying off to the states aldy. But! i will definitely try my best to control my tears. i know he'll be back in Dec. right. so, i'll just take this as a super long Hol. day after day, month after month. time will pass very quickly. before i knew it, he's back for good 4 yrs later! :) when he's away, i'll spend my time doing my assignments and studying for exams. after my Bach course next sept, i'll just need to wait for another 3 more yrs? :) then in the midst, i'll go apply for BSF (Bible study fellowhip) too. :)


ok.. i gtg.. ciaoz! :)

i will remember.....

The Lord is my God.

He will never leave me nor forsake me.

The Lord my God is my Saviour.
He is my pillar of support and strength.

For i will have no other Gods before Him.

He has delivered me from all evil and sins.

I will love the Lord with all my heart, and all my strength and all my mind and soul.

For i know my Lord is the One and only one whom i can cast all my cares and burdens upon

for He will always be there for me when i needed Him.
He will always be there also during the days of the good times.

For He is the Lord who will always be there for me

during the good times and bad.

I will always remember to put on the full armour of God.

The Breastplate of Righteousness.
The Helmet of Truth.

The Sandals of Peace.

The Shield of Faith and

The Word of the Spirit.

I will walk in His ways all the days of my life.

For He is the One for me and my family.

I love the Lord my God.
And i will Worship Him all the days of my life.

I will love the Lord with all my heart, with all my strength, and all mymind and soul.
I love you Lord.

Amen.

in approximately one month's time...

wenyao will be leaving for e states soon. looking at him sleeping next to me, on a couch on one of the levels in orchard central during mid-day, before he leaves for YF and i leave for CG in our own church, tears starts to well up my eyes again. this is not the first time. on many occasions, this had happened. without him knowing of cuz. (rather, i didnt want him to know). though he always tells me tt he'll be back in Dec? but, i still cant believe that time passed so quickly and he's leaving so soon! i knew he was leaving. he had been preparing me too. but.. it's the sense of the unwillingness to let go (for the time being) of him.


as much as i'm glad tt time passed so quickly and soon, he'll be back for good after 4 yrs of further studies in the states. but, right now, i want to spend every single minute i can with him. spend as much time as possible with him before he flies off. i know this is not wise. but i still want to do it. no matter how tired my day can be? i still want to chat with him either on the hp/ msn/ webcam at the end of the day before i go to bed.

I'm praying hard that the Lord can grant me extra extra dosage of independence, and courage when wenyao's not with me, physically here in singapore.


he's awake now. shall stop here for now.

a terrible + Disasterous attempt of home-cooked meal...

baa.. i wanted to cook smth nice for mummy.. in turn, when she came back, she scolded me for not asking her how i should steam the chicken thigh, why is there so much water in the "wok", why didnt i add garlic and ginger so on so forth.. haiz... yea.. so what did i cook? or rather, ATTEMPTED to cook..


all i wanted to cook, is my mummy's favourite dish, "Chu Mi fen with yong tao fu" + steamed chicken thigh

HAIZZZZ.... BUT APPARENTLY, IT FAILED TERRIBLY. She said tt e soup was too salty till it's a little BITTER!!!

*SOBZ*

6 "DEADLY" MISTAKES THAT I'D MADE.. :(

1. DO NOT OVER FRY THE "IKAN BILLIES"
2. ADD IN THE VEGETABLES A LITTLE TOO EARLY
3. REMEMBER TO ADD GINGER AND GARLIC WHILE STEAMING THE CHICKEN THIGH
4. DO NOT PUT IN THE PRAWNS TOO EARLY
5. DO NOT OVERESTIMATE THE AMOUNT OF NOODLES YOU PLAN TO COOK
6. ADD MORE WATER!!!

Haizz.. will try harder the next time round then... :P

PS: always remember to mop the floor more than 4 times.. yea.. i got scolded for not mopping it better.. the floor was still a little oily.. haiz...................

reflections... thanksgiving... blessings and grace...

just finished chatting with my darling on the phone. He had a really really long and tiring day today. Due to the DSTA scholarship, he had to go through quite a number of different types of training sessions. From grooming to culinary courses. :) although tiring, but i really appreciate my darling for squeezing out the last bit of the energy which he'd left and we had a pretty long yet meaningful and fruitful conversation (as usual, and i really Thank God for this) before i do my QT then hit my books again before gg to bed.

The world is so so small.. he met a friend from today's course. and you wouldnt believe it. This was a friend whom i knew a yr ago and lost this friendship due to some misunderstandings. that said, i shall not go in depth into it. It was wad had happened abt a yr ago and i do not want to think about it or talk about it anymore. a friendship lost, period.

now as the title suggests, this is an entry which i would like to talk about some personal reflections i had made throughout the months since the beginning of the year till now. many many thoughts raced through the tiny head of mine when i was chatting with my darling. And i really really, deep down, from the bottom of my heart, want to thank the Lord who has so graciously provided, changed me, and moulded me to what i am today. No, i'm not anybody great or famous. nothing of that sort. but, the fact that i had changed for the better, and is growing closer and closer (trying my best) to God each passing day. i've learnt how to count my blessings instead of complaining about why things didnt turn out the way i want it to? why i didnt get the guy i want (in the past), as in, why is everybody attached and not me? and so forth. i was just telling wenyao the other day that just a couple of weeks ago, i looked back at the photos that i had taken during the past 2 yrs, i seriously didnt realise that i am that wild. yes. chui ting WAS wild. clubbing, drinking, partying.. it all started during the 2nd half of the yr of last yr till the end of last yr. I was invited to a couple of 21st birthday parties, gg clubbing with friends, drinking (alcohol) and dancing to loud music in clubs and making lots of new (guy) friends. that whole period of time, i was so so spiritually dry. such a disappointment in God's eyes.

But i thank God that EVERYTHING changed, when pastor susan told me that she'd prayed about it and have decided to put me to be a co- cooridinator together with Jin Cong to lead a team in the Children's Ministry which i have been faithfully (by the grace of God) serving in for the past 2-3 yrs. Taking up the responsibility of a coordinator (eventually) is not easy. The first and most important thing is not my leadership qualities BUT! MY OWN SPIRITUAL WALK WITH GOD. In order to feed (spiritually) the children, you must first be well fed in His words and walk in the way of the Lord. Which i must say, i hadnt done a very good job so far, but, i'm willing to try and give my best to God.

Ever since i knew wenyao, as time passed, month after month, God used him to change me. for the better. I am proud and confident to say that (i told wenyao this too) since the day we got together till now, we have not have had a single quarrell. still in the honeymoon period after 5 months of us getting together and is still gg strong. all because we are both not very hot tempered people and we are ever so ready to talk things out nicely and factually and honestly. right from the beginning, both of us were very honest with each other. He knew about the tattoo (one of my biggest regrets in life) even before we were together. so many times, i want to get rid of it. but one dear friend in church once told me, if leaving it on serves as a reminder for me that by doing things without thinking about the consequences, then whether i get rid of it or not doesnt matter. either way, it had left me a scar. a lesson learnt. Wenyao never fails to give me small reminders about the nitty gritty stuff that i shouldnt do as a christian, as a child of God. Things such as controlling my own tongue (gossips, complains, hurtful words etc). but! he too never fails to encourage me, compliment me of the things i did right and did well. we have come to learn how to love each other despite the distance (although s'pore not exactly very big i must say) and the busy schedules throughout these few days especially. He was busy with his DSTA scholarship stuff, i was busy studying for my exam and preparing and doing the admin stuff for our annual children's ministry's retreat next sat.. and yes, i'm trying hard to take note of my grammatical errors when i speak, and he's been trying to help correct me.

I thank God for wenyao. for accepting me for who i am. for loving me for who i am. for being so patient with me. for listening to all my stories about what my children in class did in sch and so forth. everyday. everyday i see his picture on my phone, i cant help but to acknowledge and agree with him how good our God is. how wonderful, and beautiful this relationship is that ONLY God can give to us. I thank the Lord for His unconditional love He has for us as His children, His never ending grace that He keeps exentding out to wenyao and myself. That self-less Him, that unselfish love, a love that only God can give.


Prayer:

Father in heaven, i thank you for this day. thank you so much for all that you have graciously gave us and blessed us with. You have blessed me with a loving family, loving parents and sisters, a wonderful cell leader Adrian and his family. Thank you God for this servant of yours who has been and is still is faithfully serving you as my cell group leader throughout the years. I i thank you Lord for putting wenyao into my life. For blessing me with such a loving dear and eventually husband. Who always puts me first after you and his family. i pray Lord father that you continue to pour your blessings over my family, each and everyone of them. my dad, my mum, chewy, san, yee, even my extended family. my relatives. especially those who still hasnt come to know christ. I pray Lord Father that you will continue to bless my cell group leader Adrian and family and my cell group. You continue to guide us and be in our midst during bible study and cell group discussions. be with each and every single one of us each day. That we will remember You in all that we do and say. That we will only say of the good things to glorify Your name and Your kingdom. That we can be Your lighthouse in our own family, with our friends, in our schools, in our workplace and in our ministry. Use us mightily so that we may glorify You. continue to strengthen this beautiful relationship which You have graciously entrusted upon wenyao and myself. Let not the distance and time difference be a hinderance to us. Let us build a strong foundation, to builld our relationship on Christ and may it be a Christ-centred one. Everything is possible with You and You only. With God, nothing is impossible. I thank you God and i pray all these in Jesus' most precious and Holy name, Amen.

cell grp mtg.. but not my own church's CG

yup yup.. as the title suggests, i attended CG today. but the CG that i attended is actually wenyao's CG. initially, i thought i could get a glimsp of how their CG discussion is like. however, due to some reasons, Qi Heng, the CG leader decided to call off CG discussion. instead! they had CG bonding! hahaha.. some of us met up earlier at abt 12pm at the market beside Glory Pres church for lunch before making our way down to Rose's condo for some games.

When we reached rose's condo, we were very warmly hosted by rose. she brought up a fan for us, served us cold drinks... etc. she brought us up to the pent house (very nice!!!!) though it was really warm? and Qi heng got most of the wind from the non ociliating fan, nonetheless, we had a fun time sharing abt our week with each other. There were about 13 of us altogether. despite the fact tt we were given only 3 mins ech to share abt the week, thanksgiving and prayer request, many of us needed to leave by 4pm. so instead, we didnt have time for games. but hey! that's alright! i enjoyed myself thorougly just listening to the different works God has impacted unto the lives of these young people before me. Many shared about how God has blessed them, refreshed them (Be it from church camp or mission trip), and definitely reminded them of hw good God can be to us in both good times and bad. very very inspiring and comforting. oh! and yesterday was Doreen's b'day. so we kinda celebrated for her again today. we had ice-cream! in place of a b'day cake. yummy! *slurp*

Thereafter, wenyao and i left for town. we went to Vivo city after we left rose's place. cuz there's one direct bus to harbourfront, which is where we wanted to go as well. wenyao and i decided to go "bag hunting". for him of cuz. he needed a good, not too bulky, classy and durable bag that can double up as a laptop bag for him to carry ard with ease.

after walking ard vivo and found nth, we decided to take a train down to orchard, Paragon. And lo and behold! we found his bag after a long search! very good price! we even got a free gift! another laptop bag. wenyao decided to give it to me cuz e free laptop bag definitely will not fit his 17" macbook pro. fair enough. i needed one for my netbook too! :) very generous of wenyao. and oh! oh! mummy passed me a 69 bucks Metro voucher for me to spend it off. so just nice. darling used it to purchase his bag. so he just need to top it up a little. :) God provided. see? God is so good to us right? :) do i hear an Amen? :p

After that, my leg started to hurt. the new Club Marc shoe's apparently alittle too tight for me. so we went to find a place and settled ourselves down at starbucks (our fave hang-out place) beside wheellock place and played the game, Plants Vs Zombie. very fun and exciting! and some mini stages killed LOTS of our brain cells too. needed to strategise ALOT. :) nonetheless, very fun game to play. :) alright. that's so much for today. there's church tmr. i should be in bed by now. will update u guys soon!

btw, FYI, wenyao's officially flying off to the states on the 16th Aug (1 day after our 7th- month anniversary) from T3, 2330. will DEFINITELY be seeing him off. and hopefully, he can save up enuff to fly back in dec. and then, we can celebrate our 1st yr anniversary (a little earlier thou, cuz on the actual day, he's aldy back in the states for a new term) cum christmas tog! and cool! that'll be our 2nd time celebrating christmas tog! :) looking very much forward to it. :)

New netbook!

hurray!!! daddy bought for me a netbook from the PC show yesterday!!! now, i can carry it around, use the net, chat, web cam with darling wenyao and do my assignment. :) so sorry for the short post. will update more soon. :)

updates...

PRAISE THE LORD!!!! my darling's FINALLY off the sling and is able to play the guitar and the keyboard, and can do everything! except to regain the power on his right arm to do things such as pushing/pulling glass doors, to carry heavy-weight stuff etc. anyway, i really thank God that there were no complications or whatsoever. Thank you all for praying once again. :)


That said, now, or prob not so soon, dearie and i can start gg cycling, go ard shooting with his cam.. *BIG SMILE* and so forth. :) hmm.. what else happened during this period of time? hmm.. oh ya! a few days ago, dar and i met up with one of his best friend, Joy, to do some catching up. She left for HK to do her exchange prog at NTU a couple of months ago. and now she's back. according to her, shopping's not bad, she bought quite a lot of stuff? and she went ard window shopping for camera stuff. she and darling have a lot in common. i told darling tt both of them are very compatible lor.. =P but of cuz, i will not, and will never allow anyone to take my darling away from me, except if it's God's will. anyway, she's also into cameras, and! she's a HUGE FAN of Mac. =) so, we were playing with dar's MacBook Pro, 17-inch. =) thou there were alot of things which they were talking about that i dun really understand? but, oh well.. nvm.. it's their common topic anyway.. well at least after tt, Joy and i were sharing our own experiences we had with our sch kids? haha.. btw, Joy's mummy's a pre-sch teacher too! =)

But i must say tt i like Joy very much! She's a very nice and sincere girl. love e way she shakes herself when in frustration? (ok. i better stop writing abt her like tt, else it's gonna sound so wrong. LOL. i am toally straight--this i must say. hahaha) oh! oh! and she's funny too! she talks to her keyboard (she plays e keyboard too =) ) and her macbook! LOL.. funny girl.. =P

Today's the first time i kinda oversee and run the children's church's sunday prog alone, tog with a team of fellow ministry workers without Mr Chow. Not bad. not bad. thou i screwed up a little in the front part? but it's alright. everyone learn from their mistakes isn't it? =) but i must really thank the Lord for giving me the wisdom to teach the children about today's lesson in my own class. i didnt really teach during the coperate or sub coperate time cuz i was not rostered to do any coperate teaching up front. but i must thank the team for such great team work and most importantly, i thank the Lord for such a great team! Thank You Jesus! =)

After church, geraldine, simin, chuisan, Jin Ming and myself attended the annual Global Day Of Prayer (GDOP) held by Faith Community Batist Church (FCBC) @ the Singapore Expo's Max pavilion @ 3pm. This yr, there was a Youth segment @ 3pm. so we decided to go after church. couldn't attend the 7.14pm session cuz sis and i gotta go home for dinner. =) I had a great time praising and worshipping the Lord and praying for the nation(s), families, youths from our generation, the government; s'pore and worldwide. it ended at abt 5pm? i think. didnt really take note of the time. reached home at abt 6 plus? coming 7pm. =)


Gotta meet up with darling and Joy again this Thurs. Since i'll be mtg them this thurs, will take e opportunity to finish up my assignments -- both Science and Tech module's 2nd assignment (almost finishing, thou dateline's on June 15th) and start on my play curriculum's assignment, study for my play curriculum's exam; which is on the 4th July, and do up the Children's church's annual retreat's booklet, and RUN! havent been running for quite some time. I MUST RUN. getting rounder day by day. Bah! =p anyway, it's getting late. gotta go do QT then go to slp. gdnite pple (whoever's reading this) :) take care and have a Blessed week ahead! May the love of God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit be with u today and forevermore, Amen. =)

Counting my Blessings..

Blessing Number 1:

This morning, i forgot to bring along my umbrella to work, and thinking that since i have a big umbrella in my centre.. i have no idea why the silly head of mine didnt think that i will ever get caught in the rain and will be left stranded at the bus stop without an umbrella if it really does rain. so what happened was, i REALLY got caught in the rain on my way to work! so i upon reaching e bus stop which i was supposed to alight, i stood up from my seat and walked foward. i was at the upper deck. by that time, the bus's pretty empty. just then! smth caught my eyes! guess what?! an UMBRELLA! imagine! think! what are the chances someone will leave their umbrella on the bus when it's pouring like mad? anyway, i slowly (very naturally) sat down, took the umbrella and got off the bus. before that, i was praying for the rain to stop. however, thou it did not stop? but God blessed me with an Umbrella! Praise the Lord! 

Blessing Number 2:

Darling is on his way to recovery! Wohoo!!!! thank you all for ur prayers! most importantly, THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!! Thou he's got ulcer on his tongue now? but at least, the fever's long gone already! Wohoo!!!! Praise God!!!!!!

Blessing Number 3:

My iphone case is offically closed. My friend decided to transfer to me 1.6K out of his own pocket. I feel bad, yes. But it was partly his fault too. But! he is a GREAT friend! He was trying to help me to contact that swindler girl, Ash, to get our money back! But, now that everything's solved for my side, i'm gonna think of ways to get the girl to pay my friend. 

ok.. i'm very very tired now after a whole day's work and night class.. gotta go slp.. will update more soon! cheers! God bless! :)

Wenyao and I.. coming to 4 months.. and still going strong... Thank you Jesus..

Wohoo! next fri, on the 15th May, will be darling and my 4th month anniversary! thou i have night class? but who cares? i'm so gonna meet him after class! :) anyway, here are some pics which we took recently and in there are the pics i took of our couple ring. enjoy! :)



Wenyao and myself in his room

Us outside Hotel Royal. Glory Pres. Church's Parents' Day Dinner

Random shot!

Do we look like we're on poster? :P

Couple Ring
Wenyao's size: 23
Chui Ting's size: 11

Opposite Parkmall. before dear go for his BSF class.
BSF= Bible Study Fellowship

couple ring...

Wohoo!!! Darling and i finally found a pair of couple ring for the both us which we both saw it online. thou we did not buy the one we saw online, and bought the one off the shelves, but we both still liked it after browsing thru many others. We went to The Cathay to buy it. The store's on level 2. And the best thing is that when paying for it, the shop assistant then told us that the rings are going at 50% discount! Thank you Jesus! we wanted to get smth unique but not too ex? so here it is! haha.. i was so happy that i couldnt stop smiling.. lol.. darling's always very amused by me whenever i keep smiling.. haha.. but with that, he knows that i'm really really happy. But i did tell him that i love him not cuz he bought us a pair of couple rings? but cuz i truely love him from the bottom of my heart. I very much want to slot in the picture of of rings on my blog. but my camera's with my friend who's overseas currently, and my own camera phone's not functioning properly. so yea.. so i cant take any pictures at the moment. cuz the pic was not reflected online, as told by wenyao. so i'll need to wait for a while before taking the pic and upload it on my blog sometime next week or smth. :) that's all for now! Take care! God bless! :)

Lucky- Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat

Do you hear me? 
Talking to you 
Across the water 
Across the deep blue ocean 
Under the open sky 
Oh my, baby I'm trying 

Boy I hear you in my dreams 
I feel your whisper across the sea 
I keep you with me in my heart 
You make it easier when life gets hard 

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend 
Lucky to have been where I have been 
Lucky to be coming home again 
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh 

They don't know how long it takes 
Waiting for a love like this 
Every time we say goodbye 
I wish we had one more kiss 
I'll wait for you, I promise you I will 

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend 
Lucky to have been where I have been 
Lucky to be coming home again 
Lucky we're in love in every way 
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed 
Lucky to be coming home someday 

And so I'm sailing through the sea 
To an island where we'll meet 
You'll hear the music fill the air 
I'll put a flower in your hair 

Though the breezes through the trees 
Move so pretty, you're all I see 
As the world keeps spinning round 
You hold me right here right now 

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend 
Lucky to have been where I have been 
Lucky to be coming home again 
Lucky we're in love in every way 
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed 
Lucky to be coming home someday 
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh 
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh 

BIG SACRIFICE.. BUT I LOVE EVERY BIT OF IT.. :)

i woke up at 5am this morning (4th April'09) to get ready for work. however, today's a little different. i woke up so early just so that i can reach TTSH earlier to spend more time with darling. All the way after i've woke up, i was feeling so excited and happy that i can go meet my darling after one day of his op. have been waiting so anxiously the day before for his bro's, wenhan's update about him. i kept praying and praying. 

anyway, i managed to get on a cab at about 5.30am. by the time i reached TTSH, it was about 5-ish gg 6am. when i reached the ward, i was like, oh..my..God! the doors were closed! what makes me think that the public can go in and out to visit patients as and when they want? so i sat down outside the ward, and prayed hard that nurses will come out of the wards. then i can get them to open the door for me. thou i've pressed the button twice to ask for assistance? but no one came to the door. But! God is good! he answered my prayer and i didnt have to wait long when 2 nurses came out to buy drinks at the vending machine from the oppposite ward and i got one of the nurse to open the door for me. Thank God i was allowed in! so i went in, but kinda got lost.. silly me.. anyway, finally, i managed to get to his ward. he was sleeping. snoring a little as well... lol.. i tried not to laugh out loud. 

anyway, as i was putting down my bag and placed the box, and hamster white board and the note i wrote for him, i froze for a min. cuz darling fidgeted! lol.. a little dunnoe how to respond if he really sees me. and ya, true enuff, he woke up.. so me being quick thinking, just immediately said "hi dear" and smiled. dunnoe why but i was afraid that he might have the impression that it might be a dream that i was there in the morning? that's why, after saying hi to darling, i touched his arm and he touched my face just so that he knows that i am really there. :P 

at that very moment, i was so so so happy and glad that i get to see my darling.. thou not a very nice place to be in, but, i love him so much that i dun mind sacrificing my sleep and wake up much earlier just to go visit him beofre heading down to work. i.. almost cried when i thought i saw his expression when he saw me? i thought i could feel that he was in SO much pain and it was almost unbearable. my heart hurts every time he tells me that he is in pain. thou pple may think that.. aiya.. this is still very new to us and we r still in the honeymoon period? but i choose to believe that all that i'd done for my darling wenyao are purely out of love, from the bottom of my heart. 

after class/work, i went down to wenyao's place. he was discharged by the time i knocked off. it took me only about at most an hour to make my way down to his place from east coast. initially, i was pretty nervous. firstly, i wast sure if i remembered how to walk to his place from the bus stop, 2ndly, i wasnt sure if i can interact and get along well with his relatives. however, when i reached kranji station, i told myself, U MUST NOT TAKE CAB. SAVE THE MONEY!!! so i didnt! haha.. and i could recognise my way ard! Thank you Jesus! :) 

Had quite a lot of fun with his nieces and nephews and chatting with darling's cousins at his place. Think they have quite good impression of me? hee.. but darling forgot to tell them my name while introducing me to the extended family. i am known as his girlfriend. lol.. but there were a couple of his aunties who came up to me and asked for my name. which is not a bad thing afterall. :) 

ok.. this is yet another long long entry. shall end here for now. bye dearie.. hope i wont bore u with this. :)


love you dear.. :)

Making of Shepherds' pie

here are some long overdue pics which i took when i went over to darling's house to make shepherds' pie on the 17th March '09 :)

Anxious moments...

These few days have been a pretty trying period for both darling and i. It happened just 3 days ago when i met up with dear on Tuesday after work, with the intention of looking for my dress for chewy's wedding next year, dear suddenly seemed pretty unwell he kept going to the toilet to try to puke. so we thought it might be the chicken rice which he had in the afternoon that's too oily. so after hanging ard in vivo and had my dinner for a while, we decided to make our way home at about 2030. I wanted to see dear to the taxi stand before making my way home via the train, but i decided not to. i was not sure about dear going home alone, so i told him that i insist that i take a cab home with him, then he suggested that from his house, i can continue to take the cab down to woodlands then take 161 home. sounds pretty good! so that was what we did. upon reaching his house in Kranji, i decided to text his bro, wenhan to see if he's at home. and Thank God! Han was at home. so i asked han to come out to receive his bro just so in case if anything happens, there's Han to help me. Though i was aldy very tired when i reached home? but i am glad that i've sent dear back home safely. This is what a girlfriend should do isn't it? :) But actually, i was more worried for his health and safety more than anything else. Though i know it'll cost a bomb? but i dun care. darling's the most important agenda than anything else. Anyway, the next day, throughout the whole day, i was smsing darling, calling him, to make sure that he's alright. Then come in the evening, i decided to go down to his place, without him knowing. Though in the morning, he kinda know that i might be going down? but all the way till evening time, and eventually after my dept mtg, i did not confirm with him. How to right? if i wanna make it a surprise visit. lol. so i called Han after my mtg, and asked to speak to dear's mummy and ask if i can go down. and told her to make sure that dear doesnt go out of the house. lol. so i made my way down from orchard to kranji by train, then cab down from kranji station. Managed to get dear's house add from han. so when i reached, i called dear. but ya, like i said, he's always so smart to be able to guess what i was going to do. and me being so silly didnt realise the fact that it's so QUIET ard his neighbourhood, he kinda guessed that i was outside his house. lol. nvm.. at least me making my way down to his house ultimately, was a surprise. haha. so i went in, put down my bag and went for a stroll with dear ard his neighbourhood. :) after that, we went back to his place to try to finish up my easter special's prog's games instructions and synopsis. Thank God for dear's help. With his help, i managed to get some done. :) so after that, dear sent me to woodlands interchange so that i can take 161 home and he will go to the doc. However, upon reaching home, he told me about the diagnosis which the doc diagnosed, he's suspected of Appendicitis. oh..my..god.. when he told me briefly about what it was over the phone and the worst case scenario, i was like.. no..no..no..no.. i didnt sleep very well that night. all the way till morning, i am so not willing to go to work. but, i had no choice, cannot take MC, neither can i apply leave. all i wanted to do was to stay by dear's side and pray for him and keep him company. anyway, after that i found out from dear that his dad took leave to take care of him, Han was on MC yesterday, and his mum was at home, she's only lecturing in the evening. so i thank God that at least darling wasnt left alone at home in times like this. Such a nice warm family he has. Just like mine. :) anyway, i told dear yesterday that while setting up class halfway, i kinda cried? cuz i was so super duper worried and scared? but eventually, when the children came into class, i had so much fun with all of them. They brighten up my day too, besides my darling. i always tell people that the CHILDREN are the ones who make me want to go to work everyday. and this week, we were learning about the letter "N". so claire suggested that we have a PJ party on day 2! lol.. so nice to see ALL the children come into class in their PJs. lol.. and yesterday was Claire's birthday! so Cheryl and i gave her a surprise when Cheryl announced to the class that it's Claire's birthday and i played the b'day song and we all sang the b'day song for Claire. :) anyway, later that day, after work, i decided to make my way down to dear's house again. just want to make sure that he's fine and feeling much better. So i bought dinner from kranji station, which turned out not very nice, nvm, and then started working on the easter thingie with dear again. but! this time, we were able to finish up everything and managed to do all that i needed to do. like e-mailing out the worship roster to Ade, and finish up the easter thingie. thank you darling for ur help. :) oh dear.. i suddenly realised that this is a super duper long entry.. lol.. think next time i shouldnt have problem writing 1000 words' essay yea? lol.. kk.. jokes aside, let's continue. so yea.. throughout these few weeks, we both saw though our actions, how much we love each other and are ever so willing to sacrifice for each other. next week might be a pretty trying week for me again. cuz next fri, dear's gonna go for his shoulder op. and soon, my night class for my bachelor course will start. Then, that will be the time when we might need to spend lesser time tog, and it will definitely put us to test, to see if we can survive the "LDR" in sg. seeing each other lesser and lesser, but still continue to love each other, and even more. i'm sure, with the grace of God, who has put us tog and in Him, all things are possible. right darling? :) anyway, yesterday, in the midst of waiting for dar's comp to load and everything, we had a pretty short sms conversation with rose. She mentioned about how sweet i was, to rally people from their cell grp to keep dar in prayer and how dar should appreciate me (that's the text she sent me and later to dear). hee.. all that i did for dar is not just a show, to show others and him what i'm capable of doing.. it's all done with love from the bottom of my heart. i didnt care much about whether will i get enuff slp or energy to do class the next day? all i have in mind was about his health and that's about it. I thank God that He is in control right from the beginning. alright. think i'm gonna stop here for now. will blog again soon. :) cant wait to see my darling again. hee.. i love you my honey oats sweetie pie! :)

a song i used to listen to everyday...

This is a song which i would like to share with everyone. i almost forgot about this song till just now, when i was in wenyao's car, he played a song on his CD for me, and it's smth similar to this song, Why. i've always loved this song. when i first listen to it, i teared. i hope you'll enjoy this song as much as i do. Maybe, some of you may have heard this song before? but it's ok, it's a nice song to share with everyone. God bless. :)


WHY- Nichole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddy
He said I`d finally reached the age
And I could ride
Next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said daddy why are they screaming
Why are the faces of some of them beaming
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe
I bet that crown hurts him more than it shows
Daddy please can't you do something
He looks as though he's gonna cry
You said he was stronger than all of those guys
Daddy please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide

So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And he said father why are they screaming
Why are the faces of some of them beaming
Why are they casting their lives for my own
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows

Father please...cant you do something
I know that you must hear my cry
I thought I could handle a cross of this size
Father remind me why
Why does everyone want me to die
When will I understand why

My precious son
I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own
Jesus this hurts me much more than you know
But this dark hour
I must do nothing
Though I`ve heard you unbearable cries

The power in your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon you`ll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below...see the child
Trembling by her fathers side
Now I can tell you why

She is why you must die

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ILKcnaoPEgg

14th and 15th March..

these 2 days had been really exciting for me!!! on the 14th March, wenyao and his cell grp invited me along to celebrate wenyao's 22nd birthday! :) though it was a belated one, but it's alright. I was pretty nervous initially. cuz i do not know most of his cell group friends? and i'm not sure how open are they to welcoming new pple. but darling (wenyao) was really nice. he kept assuring me that the cell grp themselves are even more excited to see me! lol.. anyway, darling and i were early. so we sat down in SMU's campus to wait for the rest of them to arrive. oh! oh! cuz we're mtg at the settler's cafe @ SMU that day. anyway, when they have finally arrived, darling and i decided to make our way down to go look for them. i was a little shocked to see so many of them. BUT! i really really thank God that everyone was super friendly! i could chat with them, and click with them just like that! *happy* soon after, we were having so much fun there, taking pictures, chatting, playing games. oh! and it was a last min thing! Rose, Doreen and I decided to give darling a surprise. Rose went to get dear a cake from raffles hotel? then when she came back, i went to meet up with her and got the staff to switch off the light and brought in the cake. it's not very helpful to have such an intelligent boyfriend i must say. so, as much as i would love to go with Rose to the buy the cake, i cant. cuz if not dear will definitely ask for me and soon realised what was happening. anyway.. he kinda guessed it. so in order to make us feel good that we managed to surprise him, he decided to play along.. haizz.. nvm.. at least the getting the cake part was a huge success. haha.. thank you Rose. i decided to omit out the part whereby we were pretty unhappy that our food came late and it wasnt served hot. cuz this is supposed to be a joyous occasion? so yea. i choose to remember and to jot down the happy moments. :) i gave darling 3 surprises! first, some balloons which i got one of the really cool parents i have in class who so happened to be a balloon sculptor (and brought the balloons in for the class for term end party that day) to make a heart and a goldfish for darling. though the goldfish kinda didnt work out, cuz one of the part burst? lol.. anyway, 2nd, i bought darling kinder surprise! so he ate it, and we opened up the toy portion together to see wad's in it. haha.. quite pre-school.. but i love it! :P 3rd, i got him presents. 2 t-shirts. though i think he didnt expect any presents from me? or did he? maybe he did. given his intelligence. nvm. anyway.. so tat's for the 14th March.

15th March:

after church, dear and i made our way down to Joyce's birthday party @ her house. Joyce is actually dear's cell grp friend, Nichloas's girlfriend. she's also from Glory Pres Church, but is in a diff cell grp as dear and gang. so we were like one one the first few to reach. slowly, when the pple came, we were all sitting round the tepanyaki table. ready to cook! oh my! i was hungry! so Benita and bf, Adam, Dear, Sam and I shared a table. there was a wide spread! Beef, Chicken, Fish, Salmon (Dear and my fave!!!), Cuttlefish, noodles, etc.. and yea.. my darling can cook!!!!! He cooked Hokkien Mee!!!!! my goodness! It tastes really good! *slurp!* haha.. thou i stood far far away when he was chopping up the garlic and frying them. i hate garlic! so does he actually.. hee.. anyway, we were having so much fun, chit chatting, and cooking and eating. thereafter, we went to cut the cake, took some pictures and played Taboo! (singapore version). it was a Men Vs Women thingie. lol.. anyway, in the end, the ladies won! Hurray!!! thereafter, Dear, Christina, Benita, Michelle and myself drove over to Mich's place for more games. we had so much fun and laughter! and i even broke the record for collecting the most number of cow heads.. -_-" objective is to collect as little as possible? but u noe, me being me, muddlehead and silly me, made some wrong moves and collected 201 cow heads in total! *slaps forehead!* nvm. anyway, i bought a pack of the cards from Michelle. so yup yup. shall play it with my cell grp one of these days. oh oh! and on this coming Wed, i'll be mtg up with the girls, Sing lynn, Christina, Doreen, Rose and myself. We're gonna have a sort of like girls' cell bonding kinda thing. lol. i'm not in their cell? but that's fine. they invited me anyway. hee. oh but yesterday, i do felt quite bad for having so much fun at Mich's place till i forgot the timing. cuz i have got no work? but dear has. and he still gotta drive me home. :( sorry darling. you went home so late again yesterday. i'll promise to take note of the timing next time k? :) ok! think that's all for now. gotta let yee use the comp. and i need to get ready to go out with san. take care! God bless! :)

i went to bed at 0830 hrs...

Last night, was a very different night. and it will be the same for tonight as well. ever since the day i can remember, to date, last night, on the 12th March'09, was the first time ever i went to bed at 2030 hrs tog with my mum, sisters and relatives, all in one room, my parents' bedroom, the master bedroom. apparently, according to the monk, (my family except the few of us, are not christians) my grandma's soul's coming back these 2 days? if my sense of hearing and my understanding of what was told to me served me right. so some of us slept on the bed, some slept on the mattresses on the floor, and some slept in their sleeping bag, on the floor as well. initially, i couldnt fall asleep. cuz if u can't, you're REQUIRED to "PRETEND" to be asleep. so i plugged in my earpiece with my mp3 player, and listen to the songs. i was listening to WOW worship, and the songs are nice and soothing. so not long after, i fell asleep. slept all the way till 2am, when my cousin Tricia beside me fidgeted, cuz she needed to pee, so i woke up. but actually, it wasnt just me, i soon realised that her mum, my mum, my sisters and uncles and aunties were all awake. then we were chatting for a while (according to uncle wah seng, the whole "thing" last for about 6 hrs? from 9pm till 1am)  before we went back to sleep. soon after, at ard 5am, everyone was awake. and come 8 plus in the morning when i woke up, everyone's GONE! i was ALL ALONE at home, in the my parents' room. well done. serves me right for not wanting to get up and go to school with yee at 0730. kk.. anyway, I REALLY DONT WANT TO STAY AT HOME ALONE. so, i quickly wash up, brush my teeth, change my clothes, close the windows, grab the macbook and other necessary stuff, throw it into my backpack, and left the house IMMEDIATELY, not even bothered to pack up the bedroom. but i did send an sms to both my mum and dad telling them that i really do not want to stay at home alone and went to SIM to look for yee without packing the room. i know some of u may think i'm mad. but frankly speaking, i admit, I AM SCARED. lol. anyway, i chose to go to SIM to wait for yee cuz her class ends at 1pm and there are power sockets everywhere for the students to use their laptop and i can pass of as one of the students very well. so why not? :) thou daddy's coming back in the afternoon, but do u think i'll want to stay at home ALONE for a few hrs waiting for my dad? NO WAY! LOL.. anyway.. yea.. that's so much for last night. we shall see what happens tonight. in a way, it's good. i'm forced to sleep early, and i managed to catch up on my beauty sleep which i havent been doing much recently. that's all for now! take care! :)